My Baby

Oh how I miss Matty and how I hate Arkansas...
Granted it wasn't all that bad when I went out there.. I'm just not a fan of being separated by 1,000 miles, flooding rivers, earthquakes, fires at work, etc. . . it was wonderful seeing him over mother's day weekend though!! met the mom and step-mom.. uh ohh I know.. moving up huh? One step at a time I keep telling myself and reminding him too...I haven't been so good as this relationship thing especially meeting the parents and fam and what not...uggg I'd rather go to the dentist..at least they give me xanax hahahaha...I shouldn't complain though.. Matt's family has been WOnderful so far!!! Shoot, I've seen more of his family this year then my own...pffft. I still have yet to meet some main contenders though like his brother who I missed while I was in Arkansas, and his sisters...I absolutely adore his grandparents!!! I love love love grandma!!! She's so cute and sweet and can cook hmmmm mmmmmm! But baby steps I keep telling myself.. one day at a time.. and one step...the whole living together and moving in still frightens me. I thought we could start slow like weekends...then work our way up to a week at a time...i just want to live completely by myself right now...in peace and quite.

I guess he left sometime after Valentine's day..I am very thankful the number of times we have been able to see each other...I flew out there once, and he's been back twice now!! Once for my bday and then just recently for mother's day. . .So, hopefully the first of June he'll be back in NC...I want a week or two with him before the next go around...we're making it work for sure, but that doesn't mean it's getting easier. the key is to just keep swimming...or stay busy as fuck. That way I have less time to think about him being sooo far away. it's the little things I have come to appreciate too with us being apart for so long.. his cute little text and phone calls every morning and night, just the sound of his voice reassures me everything's going to be alright...even though he's a tough macho hard working man on the outside, he's such a sweetheart, and thoughtful..hmmmm! I love you baby! muwah My Babbbyy.

Until Next Time ~ muwah