new year's resolutions

 My little sister and I were driving home this morning from "girls night" which started with wine, and crackers, apples, yet turned into the Palm Room and Beer pong.. ahahah anyways, we were talking and the subject came up about taking a sabbatical from drinking. I've done it before...when I did i think 43 days or something.. So we thought it would be a good idea to not drink until either A) Spring Break (for her...remember 21yo college girl) or B) St. Patty's Day or Mardi Gras for me... what do you guys think? Along with my other do's and do nots for the year.. I'm gonna do it! Not drink for the months of Jan and Feb; wish me luck!

Here are some others I have been pondering over the last few days: 

I will not frequent the Beach House - ahh

Write and Read more Blogs 

Plan for the big 3-0

Shave my legs more 

Take more Bubble Baths - once a week at least

No More Meat

No More Fast Food

Crossing off things on my Bucket List (skydiving...)

Work out more

Quit Smoking for real this time

Save Money

More Traveling

Fall in Love; again

Wash my dogs more

DO ME!! 

Get back to school 

That's it for now.. let's see how I feel tomorrow! 

UNTIL NEXT TIME ~ PROST

End of the year Whooooo Raaaaaaaaa 2010

WE DID IT!!!  We survived another year, well barely hahahah. Let me take you back to January 1st, 2010...on my way to work and BAM Hit a deer, and killed it with my bug and Drake in the car.. what an exciting adventure. I thought to myself, Shit, way to start the new year. So, I'm thinking I will not be driving tomorrow :) 

Jan-Feb-Mar consisted of new years celebration then BAM break ups, EI, back together, bulll shitttt. St Patty's was fun though ;) ;)

April is always fun, Birthday Month with my cuz and randoms!! 

May was full of working with teenagers, so drinking a lot and the beginning of our "summer"! 

June was GreAT!! Dockside lunches, my buddy Brackett from the Mountains visited, and I started working my new job on base! whoo hooo Big Girl Job! 

Oh Oh Oh July... i love and hated you.. Fireworks, road trip with the boys to meet up with HB for Dave Concert in VA BEach!! Now that was a fun concert!!! crappy hotel and rain, but awesome trip! I was really in love too that month.. pffft. and and lets not forget VOLLEYBALL!!!! 

Aug basically was volleyball, date nights, tequila (and real tequila too from Mexico thx to my girl) , Tank, Chubs!!!! Oh My CHUBS!! I got to meet CHubs for the first time and see my long lost fellow CWX3 homie!!! ahhh Aug was FUN! Lots of beach, booze, and friends! Oh and I went to my 9 year old cousins Bday party at the skating ring.. throw baaaack!!! 

SEPT was full of boats, fishing, hurricanes.. ha, birthdays in MB, zip lining, sushi, fighting...bad fighting, cute new shoes, ohh dress up with my friends.. and oh yes honey I have black mail video.. so you better watch yo self before I wreck yo self!! hahahahahahaha

OCT = State Fair fun with my bestie, official break up again, Halloween with SNOOKI and Barfly, and some fucking kick ass times in EI - - thanks Girls.. I have the best friends.. always there to pick me up when I get my heart ripped out. thx again bitches!!! :) 

now NOV.. wth.. already in NOV.. hahah oh yes now I remember the highlight of the month SAINTS VS PANTHERS WITH MY BESTIE.. Dear ex boys, future boys, and boys who are just friends... when your gf buys you NFL tickets to see your favorite team and super bowl champs on the 25yard line 6th row - DON"T BE A DICK! hahah Guess he learned that the hard way pfft. I had an awesome great, perfect kick ass time with my girl anyways, and the Cheif of police in Charlotte hahahah. Ohh and the shopping!!! hmmmmmm :) After coming down from the NFL GAME HIGH, NOV consisted of date nights with barfly and K-fed, Betty's Bday, Yatch Club, fishing in the damn cold, VOLLEYBALL, and not just any ole Volleyball, but Volleyball with HB!! Wine tastings at the Wine Market in EI, Christmas Parade floats, oh and me trying POF...hahaha Damn I guess Nov was full of LIFE!!

Onto Dec... UGLY Christmas Sweater Party, gift exchanges, WINNING THE MOTHER FUCKING VOLLEYBALL CHAMPIONSHIP with the ex's team ugggg... but still.. WE WON, my country boys from Mooresville came for a visit, more Betty, Palm Room, Cameron, hanging with my little cuz, ice skating, CHristmas Cooking, snow, a wonderful visit from a dear friend, oh shit, how could I have almost forgot.. my 10 year reunion..geeze.. and now to cap off a fun filled 2010 as I was driving home this morning with Tank in my lap this time I hit a mother fucking squirrel and yep you guessed it killed the sukka... damn squirrel should know better then to run out in front of the bug...WHAT DOES IT MEAN?!?!?!? It's like the Double Rainbow...what does it mean?

Until Next Time ~ Prost

28 is weird, but

A response to HB ~ 

yeah dude.. i wanted to have kids up until this month.. i mean just last year i felt "IT".. the clock.. every time I turned a corner there was a cute baby in my face.. it was all i could think about..now..hmmm not so sure.. I think I am too selfish to have a child...right now. I like my life....there are so many things i want to cross off my bucket list..and having a child just doesn't seem to top the list anymore. I mean look at people that don't have children - they are out there living their lives...And I'm now understanding the term "age is just a number". Yes Biological I am 28, but there are times I feel like i'm 17 again, or 21, or some mornings I get out of bed after a night out feeling "22" and I wake up to feeling 40ish. Thank God for bubble baths and wine! :) SO dude, I totally support whatever you do, and I think you would make a great "housewife"...hmmm i don't like that term.. you would still be you, just have a mini me to teach the world to.. like a new project..and see that 's the problem for me... The last few months being single again has opened my eyes to what I want and i'm getting out there and doing it! If I had a child I couldn't run up to EI every time I wanted, jump on a plane and head to LA when a friend needs me.. go out for sushi with the crew when they call...It's ALL ABOUT THEM...and you know my favorite slogan has always been "it's all about me"...and my dogs, and my friends.. throw a baby or a husband in that and it just seems to throw off my fung shui.

Until Next Time ~ Prost

Our Generation

AHHHHH Christmas is over!

Although I wasn't in the whole spirit of Christmas this year I was able to enjoy every ounce of the true meaning of friendship, family, and all that jazz. For us here on the coast we actually got snowed in, well not me per say, but some of the family did; up to 11 inches whoaaa! So, they were unable to make it to our Day after Christmas Lunch or what I like to call Sunday Funday! :) So for our Sunday Funday event it was local friends, old friends, mom, and myself! Oh, and don't forget the house of dogs!!! It was a wonderful way to celebrate or enjoy the Christmas cheer, that and the bottles of wine that oh so easily disappeared hahaha. Apples to Apples, football, wine = an awesome Christmas Sunday Funday!!

So as I missed the family a little, I got to thinking and asking my other friends about family...some have big ole families, some have itty bitty families like myself. So I asked what is the true meaning of "family"? For me it's not about the biological ties one has to each other. I think it has always been like that for me. I remember growing up with just mom and me, and always having people in and out of the house; we always had someone living with us that wasn't biologically tied to us.

The older I get the more and more I learn to cherish my friendships. I mean truly and dearly cherish them, and not take them for granted, because one doesn't really know if we will see each other again. As a teenager, all I wanted was to be with my friends, and now those close knit friends have become my family. It's a special bond, a love like no other. It's a different love then you have for your biological family. I mean don't get me wrong I LOVE LOVE LOVE my mom, she's my world - all the sacrifices, hard work, she has done for me...whoooooaaa. Maybe it was my recent 10 year High School Reunion that started bringing up these feelings too...hmmm bc oh boy did we have a good time and saw some people I haven't seen in 10 years.. where did the time go...anyways.
So my point I'm trying to make is for my generation my friends = my family. For each friend there is a different feeling or love I have for them, and in the end it's all LOVE. Maybe it's just my generation that feels the way I do, or maybe it's just me...
The True Meaning of Christmas for me this year was opening my home, my heart, and arms to my family. This year for the first time I was able to spoil my mom like crazy (prob because I didn't have a stupid boyfriend to waste my money on), open my home to a very dear friend in need, cook a big ole feast for the fam, and celebrate with some awesome kick ass people! Even though I was missing my HB, she was with me in spirit..mostly because I was showing off the kick ass gift she gave me..A PINK FISHING ROD THAT LIGHTS UP WHEN YOU REEL IT IN!!! awesome! The Christmas Spirit found me after all :)

Now onto New Years.....

Until Next Time ~ Prost

One more thing I hate about Winter

If one more person asked me if I'm from Fl. I'm gonna scream. So, I was out and about this cold cold weekend all bundled up; winter jacket which makes me look like little red riding hood, scarf which i wear over my face so my eyes are only showing, gloves, and hat. People kept asking oh you must be from FL.. over and over again. No mother fuckers i'm from right here born and raised in NC. Now, granted I grew up on the beach all my life, but geeze I am not from FL..not that there is anything wrong with FL. I LOVE FL too. I wish i was there right now :) I just hate, despise the cold weather.. i don't want to be cold. I mean just last week i was riding around with the top down in the bug, and now tonight is suppose to be 22 degrees really?!!? Is it summer yet? Oh and you can forget about volleyball..uh, those "sand socks" do nothing for me.. even with layers under them my feet are still numb when i get home. Thank God there is only 2 more games left.

So things I hate about the cold:
1) you have to heat up your car, or warm it up before you leave which takes longer..uggg
2) can't leave the house with wet hair..ghhhhh
3) It's freaking dark at 530pm..boooooooooo
4) can't play outside (volleyball, bikes..) without wearing a million clothes
5) wearing a million clothes - ugg.. the worse is driving an hour or more to work and you can't even turn your head because of your hat or scarf. I feel like i was in a neck brace this morning.. and i can't move my arms because of the many freaking layers of shirts, light sweater, and heavy coats i have on...
6) driving with gloves on..how am I suppose to text, fb, or change my ipod songs.. geeze.

LOTS!!

And away we go!!! My next adventure is Today.. WHoo hooooo Birthday, Wine Tasting, Eclub...who knows what could happen!??! I'm literally counting down the half hours at work, trying to wait patiently, finish my work, and whoot whooot scoot it up to EI for the night! It's not even lunch yet I have have already been told today I am "crazy" and ridiculous"...hmmmmmm I LOVE IT!!!

So, what's on my big ole brain today??? LOTS!! Well I woke up with a GI-NORMOUS tooth ache. I feel like my right cheek is sticking out 6 inches.. but I don't have time to be down, sick, or in pain today. So, Orajel is my new BFF today, sorry HB. I don't do pain very well and have been asking around for some pain killers...they suggested Motrin..pppfttt. i need some percs or something. So until I am able to crack open some wine Orajel will have to do for now. Every time I walk it feels like a UFC fighter is punching me in my face..ugggggouuuccchhh.. Another thing that bothers me about my tooth is I am a huge baby, sissy, pussy, whatever you want to call it about going to the Dentist...I have been looking up Sedation Dentistry - this will probably be my new bff here soon too :( But enough about my pain.. lets move on to an email I received today at work in inform us government employees.

The title of the email was "newer drug", so I'm thinking there is some new anti-depressant on the market, a new anxiety shot I can shoot up with, or something like that. Never in my wildest dreams did I expect what I'm about to share with all of you.

So the drug is called Ivory Wave "a new legal high drug which reportedly has effects similar to ecstasy or cocaine. The product is advertised as a bath salt and is available in Utah. Ivory Wave, aka Vanilla Sky, Pure Ivory, Purple Wave, Charge +, Ocean Burst, and Sextacy, contains chemicals similar to MDMA. Preliminary information indicates the three most common active ingredients are: MDPV, CFT, and Mephedrone. These substances originated as research drugs, and were eventually exploited by the legal high community. Ivory Wave is usually snorted, but can be smoked or swallowed. Drug forum members report effects similar to the rush of ecstasy but without the euphoria and with a harsh come-down. Most common effects reported include: mental and sexual stimulation, increased energy, rapid heart rate, insomnia, muscle twitching, difficulty breathing, paranoia, and an intense desire to re-dose. The effects are reported to last six to eight hours, but with re-dosing, can cause insomnia for multiple days."

One of my favorite parts from this article/email was "intense desire to re-dose" LMFAO..well no shit...the shocker is it lasting 6-8 hours..whoa.. so now you all have been informed! oh and there is no drug test for it yet either..due to it being legal and all ....

Another exciting moment in my life today was I discovered I have 2 new followers for my blog which brings me to a total of 4 including myself..waaaam waaaam waaaam. But I'm excited! And Thank you new followers!! Now pass it along to all your friends, family, co-workers, and pimp the shit out of mine and the chronicles of idieh!! :) (hers are way better anyways)

hmmmm What else.. started back with my yoga.. but that'll be another entirely different blog.. so much to do, so little time to do it today... I  better go get some shit crossed off my to do list.

Until next time, Prost~

Is there no "MAN CODE"?

Ok look guys, just because "we go back on the market" or just got out of a relationship does not mean in any shape or form we all of the sudden want to hook up with you, or receive a thousand text messages from our ex-boyfriends "boy" at midnight. Get it through your heads....just because we are out of a relationship doesn't mean we want to date everything that crosses our paths. I have been PERFECTLY content spending quality yes I'll say it again QUALITY time with my girl friends. Dressing up, riding bikes, trips to NFL games, wine tastings, sushi, movies, working out, volleyball...We don't need men to have a good time, especially after a break up.. geeze give us a minute to breath. AHHHHHHHH!

It's hard enough dealing with a break up. I don't need my ex's "boy" sending me 8 text because you are drunk or what did he say? "I'm kinnda lonely right now! But if you every feel freaky I can put some things on you..." OMG are you for real??? A) you are disgusting, you are suppose to be my ex's "friend/boy" B) it's after midnight and I have to wake up at 0430 and C) how do you know I haven't found someone to cuddle with already hmmmpfttt. and OMG really??

It got worse. He went on to text "you turn me on holla ok!" "I think I could so take your mind off him in so many ways!" Why do you guys think we need another man/boy to "take our minds off the ex".. really? That's what my Awesome girl friends and mom are for...If I choose to go to meet a great guy and hang out with him on occasion it's because I want to and I am interested in him and what he has to say, not because I need some other guy to make me forget about my ex. This shit takes time..Let me breath and go at my own pace. Whatever pace that is.. I haven't quite figured that out, but as HB says "One day at a time".

Back to the text.. now after I didn't respond he texted "hey please respond to me! Don't make me feel stupid! He was talking to some loser tonight I couldn't help but think how much better you are!"
WOW. really? don't make you feel stupid..that is not my job or what? did you expect me to text you back and say oh yes baby, i want you too.. PLEASE. I can actually find and meet nice quality men on my own AAAHHHH! shocking I know. But you? really? This may come off a little harsh, but I really don't need your baggage and ohhh there is A LOT OF IT!! But you know what.. for your sake and because I do have some respect left for my ex I won't call you out on your SHIT. your welcome. ;) And another thing is there no such thing as "Man Code" anymore?? We have a code, isn't there some "code" you guys follow? Or are we girls all "fair game" after a break up? I guess the morality of men is running out, what a shame.

You know, I try really hard too not to cry or get all emotional. For the most part I think we hold it together pretty well,  that is in certain aspects of our lives like at work, in front of people who think I'm stronger than I really am, or on a date. I can and have gone days without crying or playing the impossible game of  "what if's".. I try hard to be strong not only for my fellow girl friends, but for the sanity of myself. If I allowed myself to sit at home day after day watching Lifetime movies and eating the whole house I - I - I don't even want to think about the nightmare. NO! We are not pitiful little girls anymore, I am not that pathetic teenager whose boyfriend broke my heart and now my whole world is crashing down around me - PLEASE, I have more important things to worry about. Don't get me wrong I have my "moments of weakness" but that's exactly what they are moments. Over the course of ohhh I would say 10 - 15 years I have been able to decrease my crying rate from days to mere minutes. :) GOOD JOB ME. I think the best advice I have found that works for me is from Dora on Finding Nemo, "Just Keep Swimming". I have to stay busy!!! It's the down time that'll kill ya. The time at night when you're making dinner and realize it's just for you and end up feeding the rest to the dogs or in my case now I have a yummy lunch already prepared for tomorrow. Or after volleyball showering by yourself and missing some sand on my leg because you're not there to help me. Or at night on the couch watching Sons cuddling with my Dogs instead of being in his arms. And the worse is going to bed in a really big bed with just me, 2 dogs, and sometimes up to 2 cats.. uggg. So now that I have totally depressed all of you WAKE UP and GET BACK OUT THERE!!! There is a huge plethora of a world out there to experience, I don't want to miss any opportunities of my next adventure.

I'm not saying if I meet a nice guy along my adventure and choose to spend more time with him then others that's a bad thing either. I am saying after a break up though you must keep your options opened. I have taken off the blinders and I am trying to view the whole world..just not what is put, thrown, or texted at me in the middle of the night. Until next time, Prost.

I can get use to this

I feel like I am finally getting ME back and I like it!! Since the demise of my recent breakup and Operation AM Freedom I have been one busy girl :) It started with concert with mom, a week in EI, Halloween at the Eclub, Lunch and Park Date, Weekend in Charlotte with HB and watching the Saints whoop up on the Panthers from the 6th row (OMG OMG OMG OMGOMG), and now looking forward to double date night with HB, mmm, and barfly!! It just doesn't get any better!!

I love how now I feel like I am living again and doing what i want to do without feeling like someone is always constantly looking over my shoulder, hacking my fb, or texting me a jazillion times (ask hb, she'll tell ya) asking me where i am, who i'm with, or worried i'm cheating..Look guys: we are not all WHORES ok.. if i'm in a committed relationship with you for 1.5 years i'm WITH YOU and ONLY YOU..you guys just don't get it until it's too late...but i'm not bashing anymore so that's all I'll say about that.

Moving on...So tonight's the big night!! Double date with my bff and barfly! I'm very super excited to see him again and watch a funny ass movie with my bff AND get to use my rewards card which hopefully welcomes me as Asshole Vaughan lol. I hope i packed all the right clothes.. pffft. i hate packing. I need a personal packer. Ok, well back to work I go awaiting 1600 to arrive so I can high tail it to EI and start my next adventure. Until next time, prost~

Perma Grin

I think i will be grinning all weekend :) Lunch was amazing!! Then we hit up the park like two teenagers. yes, the park with swings and everything :) it was AWESOME! I couldn't stop looking at him. I was happy when we went to the park so i could touch his face :) can't really do that at the restaurant...hehehe anyways, it was absolutely the best first date ever! I'm still so giddy and grinning and can't stop talking about him ;) 
And now onward to prepare for the Girls Weekend at the Saints/Panthers Game!!! Don't forget to watch for us on FOX 1pm Saints Side 25 yard line 6th row baby!!! 
until next time, prost.

hmmmm

Well, here goes nothing...my first blog..ooohh exciting, nervous, I kinda want to vomit, or maybe that's lunch.
Anyways, I've been reading and following religiously my bff's blog chronicles of idieh, and decided what the hell I'll give it a try.

Hmmm...so, what's on my big ole brain today?
What's always on my brain..Heidi, mom, dogs, work, planning birthday parties for work tomorrow, Boys, sex, skype, relationships, or lack there of, DTS, DTF, what i have to do today after work, lunch date, big game weekend.. ahhhhhhhhgrrrrrrhhhh

I feel like my head is going to explode, and i'm jumping out of my seat waiting for it to be 4:00 so i can go home and start tackling my to do list.

Why is it when you come out of a shitty relationship and i mean SHITTY, and you have a moment of clarity your life starts to make sense?  I have taken off the blinders i once had on for the past year and a half and looking through my bright shinny Snooki shades!! They are so big and bright, with a hint of pink :) It's like under all the shit i was in, i'm starting to not only smell the roses again, but actually be treated like one! WTH have i been doing lowering my standards..pffft. Well never again my friends, and if you see, read, or catch me falling off the wagon again, PLEASE catch me and put me back on. After 5 + years of nothing but losers, who can't drive, no job alcoholics I am doing ME! I am spending more time with people who matter and are always there for me when I fall into another loser's lap. Thx HB, i'm your number 1 fan ;)
So what did i do for Halloween?? I went out with just the girls dressed as Snooki and ended up catching me a Bar Fly who was totally DTS!! It's way too soon to say anything about the bar fly. I'm keeping my options opened, excited, happy, and smiling more and absolutely looking forward to my lunch date tomorrow with bar fly and then the NFL game with my bestie. Until next time. Prost.