Slackin'

Yeah Yeah I know I've been slacking on the blogs, for reasons I don't even know.. oh yeah I know been too busy at work to blog and too tired at night.. so I'm gonna try and squeeze one in tonight...

Update on the sabbatical....Still going STRONG!!! 13 days with no booze! Still smoking and dipping occasional...didn't smoke all weekend until tonight,  had one.. booo oh well....
Weekend was good...yoga/dinner date was Friday night had a blast with just the 3 of us lol...didn't do shit saturday it was kinda nice...and i was kinda down and out missing the hell out of Matty :( 25 more days until My plane leaves for Arkansas...oh geeze...really hittin' up the stix..lol. I can't wait to see him and be in his arms once again. Other than that... nothing really has been going on... people asked me today...so what's new... my answer...Work, VB, Yoga...not too exciting...lol. 
GAS is on the rise, still need a timing belt and regulators, doing my taxes on the first (oh shit that's tuesday :) yay)...need to clean my bathroom and wash my dirty dogs...and what else...hmmmmmmm see nothing too exciting...I miss matty soo fucking much...I like the weekends though bc we can talk more often...Damn I miss the shit out of him...hmmm alright, well i need to hit the sack.. good night all 

until next time bitches ~ muwah

i hate this

 
I just want to cry. FUCK YOU. 
I know I'm stronger then this, but FUCK YOU. 
Fighting back the tears in my eyes and the lump in my throat, FUCK YOU. 

Fuck you 1,000 miles. 
Fuck you no cell phones at work. 
FUCK YOU. 
Fuck ME for being a girl. 
Fuck you tears. 
I AM STRONGER THEN THIS.
Fuck you 30 days. 
FUCK ME for being a closet crier. 
FUCK YOU Girl Emotions. 
FUCK YOU lump in the throat, I told you to STOP.  

Fuck you Asparagus for making my pee stink. 
Fuck you 4am. 
Fuck you hour difference. 
FUCK YOU. 
Fuck you watery eyes. 
Fuck you lottery. 
Fuck ME for over analyzing EVERYTHING. 
FUCK YOU. 


Until Next Time Bitches ~ Fuck YOU.

Staying Busy

I have new countdowns I'm introducing Day 7 no alcohol and 31 days until AR! Yep that's right.. no drinking until st patty's day weekend when I will be working the beer tent for a few hours on EI!!! hahahaha and 31 more days until I fly out to more of the stix in Arkansas and visit my babbbbbbby! I still get butterflies or fireflies in my stomach when he text me, and especially when he tells me "omg I f'n miss you". It's almost as if my stomach drops down and out of my body and I can't pick it back up...does that even make sense??

This weekend was fun!! Walmart, grillin' out by myself, walking my doggies, biking, sunday funday on the vb courts getting some sun, playing lots of vb with half naked men...not a bad way to end the weekend...OH wait.. snap.. Today was a holiday too...my plan was to finish laundry, cook, walk the dogs and chill... change of plans thanks to my bitch at work Susie Q!!! I got to be a tourist in my own city for a few hours...hit up the battleship today!! It was soo much fun!! I haven't been on the ship since i think the 3rd grade when I had my boy haircut and new kids on the block tshirt on...lol.....and to make my holiday monday even better was a surprise shopping spree with momma dukes!!! new shoes, new work clothes, new play clothes, and yoga clothes!! Yay!!! Love it..and a great dinner to tie it all off!!! Still sober people.. don't even want to drink.. what I need to do is commit to some insanity...fuck I haven't even started yet... ok...tomorrow...after work....INSANITY TIME. Time to drop some serious poundage :) 


So when i thought he couldn't get any sweeter, he does....he says the freakin' sweetest shit ever..."baby, you are my soul mate i finally understand what love really is and I'm smitten"


Geeze-a-pete!! I'm totally smitten. Not only am I smitten, but mom told me tonight how much she likes him too...you may not realize this is the first guy EVER my mom has 110% approved of, liked, gotten along with....hmmmmmmm. Well, I'm off ....prob blog more tomorrow... 


until next time bitches ~ Prost

Love Love Love

I know..........I know VDay is over with and my baby is almost 1,000 miles away from me right now...but like momma told me last night with cell phones, fb, and skype it's like he's right down the road. I mean yeah it sucks I can't see see him and touch him, but just the sound of his voice everyday gets me excited! :) Hearing his voice still makes me smile from ear to ear and get all girly and those damn jacked up fireflies are back in my tummy again. He just gets me. On top of being sexy and thoughtful as hell, and goofy he's the most wonderful man I've ever met. Ahhhh! words can't describe this feeling. I LOVE IT! I love this feeling, I love when he calls me babbbbabbby...makes me melt every time. Just thought I'd let ya'll know :) 36 days to go.. damn I gotta get my ass in gear!

Until next time bitches ~ Muwah

Gonna be a good day

Whoo hooo already on fire this morning!!!! It's going to be 60 degrees today, and they said today will be the coldest day for the next few!!! Friday's suppose to get up to 72! 72!!!!!!!!!!!!!! whooo fucking hooooO!
Nothing like Gaga and a lil dip to get ya going in the morning!! I'm pumped up today, probably because I went to bed at like 930pm!! hahahahaa Meeting, Group, lunch, Group...gonna be a busy one and yoga/dinner tonight. I wanna try and get some yoga in at work today!!! maybe a nap on my new cot..hehheheee..Get up Seize the day mother fuckers!

Yeah, 1/2 way through the day and I haven't stopped! whoo hoooo Go go go today! I love it. 37 more days to go until AR!! I think we're gonna be just fine! I have projects up my sleeve to keep me busy, and we have phones, texting, sexting, pics, and skype.. we'll be just fine! Just hearing his voice this morning was awesome..I guess gma Bobbie is right, absence will make the heart grow fonder...what if i'm already fond of him? hmmm so gma is telling me it's gonna get even better?!?!? !HOLY COW!!! wow.. it's pretty fucking awesome now...mmmmm :) MATTY! muwah.

So I didn't work out yesterday, but getting back into the eating healthier and I have yoga tonight..i caught up on that thing called sleep last night! And this weekend is gonna be gorgeous so I plan on being outside doing something.. being active...oooohhh tennis anyone? it's hard to play by myself...anyways, it's a good day so far. The sun is out, work is busy, and 270 miles away there's a man loving me as much as I love him! Have a fucking great day everyone !!!

until next time bitches ~ MUWAH

i don't even want to blog today

I don't even feel like blogging today. You know what I really want to do? Pop a xannie and sleep until 4am tomorrow...damn responsibilities and work...I haven't gotten all "emo" as he calls it though since 6am...I'm trying to trick my brain into thinking he's just home and not about to be 1,000 miles away from me for 38 days. And I thought 11 days was tough.. I guess I'll find out how real this is..I know I'm strong and can handle pretty much anything (except the dentist), so we'll see. At least I have VB and Yoga to look forward to...this week.. I still have been eating crap today...well besides the leftovers I'm still munching on that Matty made yum! Then someone brought me a cupcake at work today - thanks thanks a lot.. i'm trying not to be a fat ass lol..oh and the 2 pcs of chocolate I had, not to mention the booocuuuu's of coffee I've drank today...I need to switch to water for the next 38 days.. uggg 38 days sounds like f'n forever...oh wait it is . . . I need a boost today, I need some energy..I miss him already and it's only been 6 freakin hours.. great.. alright.. I need to STOP this and get busy..DO IT.

OMG I love my Dr I work with...he just brought over his cot from his office and said I would probably use it more then him.. and I can keep it in my office!! No more napping on my hard desk YAY!!!!! heheheheheheh maybe I'll test it out today!!! hmmmmm that makes me happy! ;)

Researching flights is giving me a headache.. uhhhgggg anyone wanna fly me to AR in their private jet!??!??! Oh well.. This blog is really about nothing so I'm gonna stop now and go smoke.. yep, I'm smoking again....deal with it.

Until next time bitches ~ uggggggggggggg

ps ~ love you dude

VH1's Best Week Ever

It has been the most wonderful week ever. If we could be on VH1's Best Week ever we would! It's been so nice not only having a man around the house this week, but a real man...guess I had to go country to find him. Glad I did..and it's all thanks to Gary :)
So I was a little weary about having matty come down for a whole week due to my hectic schedule of waking up super duper early, working all day driving 3 hours a day for work, then by the time I'm home it's on to vb, yoga, dogs, dinner, shower, tv, Jersey Shore...but :) you know what? It's been freakin' incredible.. now granted I had a snow day in the middle of the week which veered me off my strict schedule of not drinking and staying out late, but he's been GREAT! He's cooked for me OMG I KNOW RIGHT!??! To have dinner ready when I get home is amazing...def not use to that. He did yoga twice this week with me AND played 3 hours of VB with me yesterday...DAMN! along with momma duke's "honey do" list for him...tearing holes in walls, putting up new lights, and latches....He's been amazing...it's actually been fun being a little domesticated this week...although I'm going to cry and be really sad when he leaves, I'm glad I have a plan of action. WORK OUT WORK OUT WORK OUT READ>>>YOGA>>>>VB>>>>. I need to get back on track..i mean it's freakin' half way thru FEB...hopefully by the time I go out to AR to see him and the band I will be a leaner lighter AnnMO!! :)

Anyways, back to him being just as awesome as me!!  I thought we had decided NO presents for VDAY...but to my surprise I got presents yesterday!!! hehehehe so freakin' thoughtful too...my favorite perfume which I was out of.. a new little black clutch bag (that fits in his jacket pocket too ;) ) and chocolate yum! Even better then presents just has been spending time with him; whether it's been playing vb, yoga, taking the dogs to the beach, just laying on the couch napping, and my favorite - bubble baths :) :) :) Oh yeah.. I almost forgot I haven't blogged all weekend... well, if you've been on my FB you know by now...it's official official...he's my boyfriend :) !!! He totally freakin' knows me too..he asked me by asking if I thought we should change our fb status'...hehehehehe how cute!!! MUWAH why fight it right?! I've never been happier...still a little freaked out and scared, BUT I'm happy and never have been this happy or felt this way..so I'm going with it!!

Until Next Time BITCHES ~ MUWAH

fat ass

So it's Vday and I feel like a total fat ass UGGGGGGG. For Realz. Now don't get me wrong, I have loved loved loved having matty here for the week, but my food and alcohol intake has been through the roof.. even though I've tried to eat "good stuff" like fish, cheese, I have still been piggin' out on wine, vodka, cornbread casserole, crab dip, chocolate, cookies, UGGGGg...i feel like all my f'n work last month has been flushed down the clogged drain this week.. it's ok.. starting tomorrow it's back to strict diet, exercise, not eating CRAP..i'm thinking about cutting out as much carbs as I can and f'n working out like a beast. Besides it will be...38 FUCKING days until I see him again... I think, no I know I can whip my ass back into shape.. besides he won't be here so wtf else am I going to do...I need INSANITY in my life! I need to add that to my yoga and vb...lets see..VB twice a week, Yoga at least twice a week..would like to bump that up to 5x/week...and then add some INSANITY!!! At least I have a plan.. OH and cutting out alcohol again will totally help...what else? I just feel like a total fat ass today...probably bc A) i've been eating everything in site B) Drinking C) i have to get up in front of people today and teach...oh yeah and it's VDAY so I want to look hot.. How the FUCK am I suppose to look and feel hot when I feel like a total fat ass UGGGG some days I really hate being a girl...today is one of them...

besides feeling like a total fat ass, I also feel like the luckiest girl in the world!! Idk how I can feel both of these but I do...Matty is wonderful, and I have enjoyed soo ooo ooooo much having him here this week... the closer tuesday comes, the more I become a girl and all "emotional" as he puts it... the wine doesn't help either lol. Sometimes I cry because I'm sad I know he's leaving for what feels like forever and yesterday I cried because I'm so freaking happy...GD emotions.. and it doesn't help it's that time of the month.. f'n A.

Ugg Confirmation of being a fat ass - the scale doesn't lie.. so yes, all the f/n hard work I put in.. is all to shit.. ugggggg...I feel like a total fat ass oh because I am today FUCK.. INSANITY HERE I COME...tomorrow. damn it. So I guess for the next 38 days I will be bitching and blogging about what I'm eating or not eating and working out...goal is to knock off 10-15 pounds in in the next 38 days.. hmmmmmmm any advice would be absolutely grateful! :)

Until next time bitches ~ ugggggggg

OMG I know

OMG it's been 2 days since I've blogged.. I know.. opps.. I have been sooo busy though with yoga/dinner, UNC/duke game, steven compton live at the rat, Snow day from work, Volleyball in the freezing cold, and now back to work...oh and Laura may be going into labor right now OMG.. GEEZE it has been a busy last 2 days. On top of keeping up with my busy schedule, I have been enjoying every second with Matty :) I can't believe it's already Friday :( this week has flown by with only a few more days together before he leaves for the big ole state of Arkansas....:( I freaking love everything about this guy - he's just as goofy as I am and awesome, it doesn't matter what I have going on, he wants to try it or be there to see it :) and damn the boy can cook too!!! whoo hooo because Lord knows I like to eat lol!! I just love listening to him talk and tell stories, I love falling asleep in his arms, i even love his snoring which is really weird, but I do...the vibrations put me right to sleep...gosh what am I gonna do when he leaves.. i've been sleeping like a baby this week... spoiled :) He just so FREAKIN' AWESOME!!! I can't even begin to tell you guys..I'm sooooooooo happy with him, I'm finally genuinely happy, to the point it's almost disgusting hahhaha...and I've started to feel a little tad bit guilty in my happiness. People all around me are ending up in shitty "relationships", not communicating, arguing, fighting, it's almost not fair I'm so freakin happy. Then again, we all deserve to be happy. Damn it, it's about time. It has only taken me 20some years to find the freaking most awesome guy for me, and I just want to shout it from the freaking tallest point of the world. Ok I'm sorry for rambling yet again, but fuck...i'm happy :)

Ok moving on to JERSEY SHORE...OMG!!! Ronnie and Sammie need to just quit, stop fighting, it's giving everyone around them a freakin' ulcer...they are just no good for each other...get the fuck out...I can't believe the way they talk to each other...geeze...but it sure as hell makes for entertaining television...

Update on resolutions... so I have fallen off the wagon with drinking and smoking, but still not eating meat!! Oh and I've had an occasional meal from taco hell...fuck. the smoking I'm gonna try harder after Matty leaves and the drinking too...I liked getting into my skinny jeans, I have more I need to lose though.. my diet and exercise has kinda fallen off this week. I still have managed to do yoga monday, tuesday, wed, and friday this week, but I still feel like I"m missing something.. I'm thinking after matty leaves starting back up with my insanity hard core - everyday!! What the fuck else am I going to do?? And besides that will give me a good month and a half before seeing him again and looking smokin' hot:) :) yeah!!!! gives me a short term goal...then by that time, it will almost be April which means BDAY TIME and SPRING VB, and then SUMMER OOOOHHHH YAY!!!! SO if anyone is looking to kick some ass and work out starting next tuesday let me know!! unst unst unst

Well I must get back to work....happy friday to all...more blogs to come, muwah ;)

Until Next time bitches ~ MUWAH

sucks the least..really? hmmmm

As I'm basking in my happiness at work, trying not to oooze joy out of the top of my head and down through my bright green toe nails, one of my girls comes in my office, sits down and sighs...uggggg. I missed her call last night, called her back, but no answer..so I asked what's up.. she said "boy issues"...Oh geeze, not again..really?? There's always some bullshit stirring around somewhere, fucking with good people...damn it. She's telling me what had happened (aka the situation, unst unst unst), then what popped out of her mouth I just couldn't believe. I mean literally my jaw fell to the floor, mouth wide opened in disbelief.. she said she needed to "find the one that doesn't suck the least". I was in disbelief, I mean I couldn't believe what she was saying.. when it comes right down to it, she was saying maybe we just need to "settle" for the person who "sucks the least" OMG - really? UH NEGATIVE DUDE> No way am I settling..been there done that, got the t-shirt, shot glass, and papers. Fuck settling..you just gotta hop back on the crazy train of dating, put yourself out there and DO SHIT!! Settle? pffft nawh dude.. I'm not a believer in settling, and nooooo it's not because I'm the happiest I've ever been, but because you don't or at least I don't want to sell myself short dude. Sometimes, you're all you've got..why settle? why not get out there and catch the big one, the prize winner? You have to remember we deserve the very best! We deserve to be happy, we deserve to be treated like a human, an equal human, better then human, we are FUCKING WOMEN!! We've put up with sooo much shit, it's our time to be freakin' happy..well at least that's how I feel..and it sounds so cliche' but when you find "the one" you just know.. you feel it all through your body, inside and out, all through your freakin' soul, it takes your breath away, it knocks you down, makes you melt, your knees really do go weak, and then you just let out a sigh of relief...ahhhh i did it, I found him.


 It baffles me that people think this about relationships that they have to settle, but then again I'm in a happy relationship, I'm not surrounded by drama anymore, I'm not putting up with bullshit...I haven't argued ever with Matty...I haven't even gotten upset with him, all I can do is melt! :) MUWAH

until next time bitches ~ unst unst unst

Morning FB

As I'm driving to work this morning and fb'n it up my heart felt as if it skipped a beat, it fell down into my stomach, I had to catch my breath, then I couldn't stop cheezy all the way to work...all over a little ole fb comment :) Do you see what he is doing to me?! I'M FREAKIN SWIMMING UP TO MY EARS IN HAPPINESS - 110% PURE, RAW, BLISSFUL HAPPINESS. So, I'm otw to work, and I hop on the ole fb (happy 7th bday btw) and leave my morning status as "loves waking up with him here"...AnDizzle already "liked" this, and then there it was....the first comment of my morning status :) He wrote, "loved waking up to you". :) :) :) I mean the morning just doesn't get any better...he woke up at the butt crack of dawn with me, laid in bed, had morning coffee and my news fix together...then he said the sweetest thing. I said to him something along the lines of "you know you don't have to wake up with me...i can be quite" He said something along the lines of "you kidding me? this is more QT time i get with you"...FUcking Shit if that's not incredible!! MUWAAH!!!!
Can't wait to get home :)

Until next time bitches ~ Muwah

540 miles of bliss

To finish up and sum up the weekend I will try and keep it nice and short so I can get back on track with my daily blogging addiction...

Saturday --> no turkey shoot due to us thinking the weather was too bad so instead we napped, Ammvets, homemade sangria, Sky Bar so I could shake my ass with the girls, but no pole dancing for me...HB wasn't there.. just not the same dude. It's fun going from one extreme to the other; hitting up the Ammvets during the day for some pool, food, and fun, then turning around and being able to "slut it up" a bit for the Sky bar..where I saw real glassware, a DJ, three stripper poles...and much much more...! Thanks for taking me dancing! whoo hoooo. I think though the best part of the night was sitting in the car with Matty waiting for everyone else to get there...I cherish every second with him.

Sunday --> I couldn't leave the country without seeing Grandma, the sweetest, nicest lil ole lady ever to grace this earth, and paps is cool too :) So we headed over for some good ole home cooking for breakfast. Breakfast turned into a 3 hour session of eating, chattin' it up, old pictures, and showing off what a big deal Matty is! What a wonderful way to end my weekend with the g/parents!! I could spend all day there..besides the shooting squirrels out the dining room window it was an awesome time! I feel extremely grateful lately with Matty coming into my life as he did - it's simply just wonderful. It's like a light bulb finally clicked in my heart, hopefully it's on of those energy saving bulbs that last forever...anyways..starting to drift.. another successful, exciting, weekend in the country. Totally worth the 540 miles round trip from my driveway to his. Hmmmm...

until next time bitches~prost

Super Sweet Outfit

I'm not sure yet whether to break up my weekend into daily separate blogs, or to try and tie everything into one big one.. hmmm decisions decisions. I guess I'll just start blogging and see what happens heeeheeheee

After the big show with American Aquraium Thursday Night, I woke up in a daze, not remembering bits and peices...I remembered the show, and dancing with my new AA friend we'll call her AnDizzle!! She was freakin' awesome...danced with me and sang all their songs with me!! whoo hoooo. And my old roomie Ryan came out too...so much fun, shot shot shot shot! I'm so happy that Matty, G'money, and Amber came to the show with me!! I love turning new people onto American Aquarium!! Although I didn't remember Matty trying to carry me in the house or how the hole got in the wall, I do remember hearing the "L word"...Oh geeze...so....i did what any respectable Aries would do and FREAK THE FUCK OUT....then i thought in my haze, why am i fighting this.. i do love him. So what if this is happening fast, so what. I don't feel the way I feel about him with any past relationships nor any new dates I've been on...I'm afraid of sooo much, what if there's someone better (i highly doubt), what if it's still in the "honeymoon" phase, what if he's just gonna break my heart? Oh and why would I get into a long distance "relationship" if I'm gonna do any that's not my number one choice..uggggg It all boils down to the way I feel when I see him, when his baby blue eyes stare through my freakin soul, when his hand reaches for mine no matter where we are or who we're with then he takes my hand to his lips and gently kisses it, and soooo many others...

Ok, moving on...Friday we wake up to it freezing cold and raining ugggg so what does G'money want to do??? 4 wheelin'...not just regular ole 4 wheeling..but a racing super fast 4 wheeler in the rain and mud and coldness...I was totally down for some excitement so I was down!! Headed to Woodleaf to his parent's house..hung out with them...they said, you're not going to ride today?? it's raining..we were like YEAH! I had a super awesome outfit too!!! I thought I was going to die at not one point, but pretty much the whole time I was grasping and clinging to G'money hoping not to die today...we started off ok, then progressively faster and up and down and shit...then he took me in some woods...i closed my eyes at that point and hung on for dear life...the ride felt like forever. Then as we approached the house he freakin' popped that son of bitch up on 2 wheels.. that's it I thought....i'm going to get bumped off this thing, flipped, roll, and crack my head open...It felt like at one point I had to be cracking his ribs as tight as I was holding, but couldn't really tell towards the end due to my hands being numb but at least I looked good doing it LOL :)

After thawing out from 4 wheelin' we heading for a relaxing afternoon movie and couch time!! I guess I really need to try and watch more movies..people are really in awww that I haven't seen the movies I haven't...so I watched Boondock Saints for the first time..LOVED IT!! ...then we waited for HSm and headed off to the cabin in the Mtns, SPARTA here we come! The cabin is sooo cute and precious, and sits right on top of a hill with cows and everything!! We hung out and I introduced the kids to new drinking card games.. circle of death!! Now the downside was we ran out of beer and had to play the game mostly with ...your choice Tequila or Jack...whoooft. Tough. We finished the damn game though....and only had one casality...HS let it go twice!! She was a champ though..throwing back that 2 fingers....after the kids went to bed, we had a nice buzzed cooking session of Ramen noodles!! He likes Ramen like I like Ramen!!

Until next time bitches ~ Prost

American Aquarium in Statesville!

So I was able to finagle a half day thursday so I could hit the road and head to Mooresville early!! I couldn't miss the show!! I'm always late to see the boys, and this time I was going to be early, well "on time". I made excellant time considering I was leaving straight from work.. 4 hours and a little change!! whoo hoooo I made it...of course I beat Matty there, but no worries, Garrett had Jack waiting for me hahaha..nothing goes better with Jack then sundrop and yoga!! Yeah I had to stretch out after such a long ride...and the jack helped too :) after about 20 minutes or so Finally, Matty and Amber showed up!! ALRIGHT!! IT"S TIME TO PRE-GAME!!!! OMG sooooooo awesome to see him after so many days...ahhhhhhh. I melted. Now, back to business...remember I have not drank since 15JAN11, so this should be a "fun" night.. and when I say "fun" I mean outta control, raging, dancing, meeting new AA fans, seeing old friends, peeing at ATM's, holes in walls, a gallon of wine, PBR drinking, Whiskey shootin, not remembering Cook Out, Walmart, or anything else outrageous that went on....that's what your friends are for...to piece together the night before and give you hell, but still love you the next day kind of FUN!!!! My excuse, I didn't eat much that day LOL! That's just one more reason I love my country family, they just don't give a fuck, no judgment zone out there!!! :) So you see how the night kinda went... THE SHOW WAS FUCKING AWESOME!! and my peeps loved the band, bought them shots, bought cds, and shirts, and cozies!! I truly do have the most awesome coolest friends in the world....more blogs to come about the weekend later.. lots to talk about, trust me hmmmmmmmm. 

Until Next Time Bitches ~ GO PACKERS 

Wake up DAY

IT"S WAKE UP DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm so freaking ADD and hyper right now, it's ridiculous!!! AHHHHH I'm trying to study for my class I have to teach, but I can't... I look at for 3 minutes and want to jump out of my chair, run into the hallway of my office building and scream!!! I"M GOING TO SEE MATTY TODAY!! :) I have one thing, well 3 things on my brain right now and it's not Imagery Rehearsal ...it's 1) Matty 2) American Aquarium 3) sexy skinny Jeans yeay!!! OMG OMG OMG .. all i have to do is get through this class, finish my notes, go to the store and get a bottle and some smokes, and snacks for my road trip...and hit the road!!!!! OMG...yes, i didn't stutter.. a bottle of liquor and smokes.. It's a special occasion tonight!! I'm so freaking happy and excited I can't contain it.. the fireflies that are cracked out on redbull swirling around inside me are now trying to burst through my nipples to escape..my stomach hurts. Breath.. annmo...breath

12 hours from now I will have a PBR in one hand and Matty in the other listening to AA live!!! I'm sooooo happy the waiting is finally over! It feels like it's been months since I've seen him, when in all actuality it's only been 11 days...whoa.. and now I get to keep him for 11days! I"M STOKED!! Ok, well I have to go now and do work work..hopefully I will find a computer in the country, if not I am signing off until sunday/monday. Have a great weekend, I know I will! Adventures only 270miles away!!!!

until next time bitches ~ prost

Team Munoz

OMG I haven't even blogged today! Geeze...So still going strong not drinking, even at vb last night! But I'm really just saving up for this weekend, and so I can get into my sexy jeans :) I didn't even have a milkshake today - i saw them, but said NO! hahahahhaa The smoking is another story..it's like oh January is over, time to smoke again ugggg...i'm jumping right back into identifying myself as a "smoker"..ugggg

So after work, and yoga and dinner, and packing and laundry and shower and LAURA"S HAVING A BABY...i've totally forgot about my blog.. sorry.. a lot going on tonight!!! and even better I GET TO SEE MATTY TOMORROW!! And, the best part is, I get to see him for the next week!! yeah!!! Country's coming to spend some AnnMo time...volleybal, yoga, Compton live downtown wed night... oh it's gonna be a good next week!!! OMG and Laura's having the baby!!! whoo hoooooo come on NOAH!


Dinner was amazing thanks to Jamie and Jim!!! I love yoga/dinner nights!! hmm hmmm They out do themselves every week!!! and I get to reap the benefits!! thanks again guys!! WOW I do have some freaking amazing friends! I'm about 80% packed! so that's good.. I hate packing.. uggg, pj's work out clothes, jeans, tshirts, fuck jewelry..shoes, slutty going out clothes...cold weather clothes ugggg....I can't wait for tomorrow when I get to the country!!! Probably won't be blogging this weekend either, so you bitches will just have to wait till monday after superbowl...GO GREENBAY. 

well good night. and GO LAURA!!!!! LOVE YOU AND NOAH>> HOPE HE COMES OUT FIST PUMPING and hope you don't pooped the table! :)

until next time ~ MUWAH UNST UNST UNST 

Heart stopped for a sec - Thanks Dude

Best friends are AWESOME!! THANKS DUDE. She may be the President of EI, but she always has time for a quick emergency call from me. ahhhhh Deep breath in and.....out. If it wasn't for her I'd probably be panicking, over anayalissing the last 15min for no reason, and FREAKING THE FUCK OUT. Breathe......she just makes everything calm, peaceful, and helps bring my ass back to reality!

speaking of my ass..how is it my boobs are shrinking due to the "losing weight looking hot wearing my sexy jeans obsession", but my ass is staying the same? hmmmmmm

So I'm at work and would have probably gone straight across the hall and been like OMG JESS, you'll never believe who just called me...but she's out for the moment...and Bruce is too far away....speaking of Bruce, I need to holla at her.. we have been entirely too busy the past few days to holla...so when push comes to shove I can always always count on my one and ONLY HB!! She knows be better then anyone else, and knows exactly what to say, when to say it, and how to say it to keep me as sane as possible. Thanks Dude, I love you! I love love love YOU! I know you're the Prez now and everything, but you're still my "meep meeep, yard sale yelling, beach laying, road tripping, singing our lungs out, always there for me" Best Friend! Does Hallmark have a card with that on it?! They should - I can't tell you how much you mean to me, and how much I love you, respect you, admire you..ok i'll stop, my mascara is NOT water proof.

the call -
some things never change i guess - it's funny teaching a class on behavior change and breaking habits to come back to my office to this voicemail...lol all i can do is smile and chuckle, because for the first time in a long time - i've let him or the idea of him go. I'm so happy with my life right now. I'm happy with my circle of old and new friends, I'm happy with my circle of old and new activities, and I'm especially happy with my special someone...:) Between HB and Matty Ice I think it's gonna be a good year guys!! maybe it's all this yoga I/ve been doing, but I feel so relaxed and at peace - ahhh breathe..in and out......

so i know the voicemail was some form of singing..i'm thinking it was American Aquarium...he knows my love for them, and if he's following them, probably knows they're playing this week, and probably knows I'm going to see them.. wouldn't that be some shit if he showed up in statesville HA. yeah right. Now the question is really? really dude? 0926 and you're leaving what I assume is a drunk dial singing voicemail on your ex's phone....hmmmmmm. Now I am assuming he's been drinking, I could be wrong, but really? hmm Oh well. thanks for the song dude!

I'm not gonna let anything ruin my day, because you know what today is?!?!?!? Not only the frist day of FEB, but also the countdown is now down to ONE AND A WAKE UP AHAHAHAHAHAHAH YAY!!! :) I wish you could see my cheesy ear to ear grin, with my whitening teeth!! :) Oh yeah, starting whitening my teeth again last night.. i was like whoaaa...lol. SO yeah, one day closer to  being in a state of PERMA GRIN!! I can't wait to see you :) and all that jazz!! MUWAH Baby!

until next time bitches ~ MUWAH