Swimming Thoughts (take 2)

July 7th, 2012

While I'm ranting....What's up with all these damn "engagement pics" on facebook?

Is it me or aren't they super annoying?....

They're so cheesy and staged. So unnatural looking uggg makes me want to stracth my eyes out...ikr.. horrible. Isn't changing your status on fb enough? before fb didn't people send hand written announcements? I'm not the wedding expert...I just know what annoys me.

If it were me, I would like to go to a carnival and take pics in the photo booth - you know the ones that have 4 pics in a row...that would my MY PHOTOS!!! In fact we should do that this summer - photo booth pics! ! !

In addition to my previous blog, it's still swimming. Faster in my head..probably because I haven't said it out loud...was gonna tell the girls last night, but didn't...talking to him last night, this morning, texting ... I just love him more and more everyday...this is all his fault really lol.

I dont' want engagement pics
I don't want a rehearsal dinner
I dont' want the dress
I don't want 200 people

I just want HIM - I wanna walk to frozen waterfalls and video him walking across the ice, I wanna jump in freezing water with him, I wanna walk through a pumpkin patch and watch the stars in the mountains with cows in the back yard, I wanna ride roller coasters with you, I want wild animals to ram your truck so I can feed them out of my hands and take pictures, I want you to drag me to two weddings in one summer (and I hate going to weddings), I want to travel to all the places you work, I want to be on bourbon street with you, I wanna go to MC parties and drink whiskey with you, I want to sit in public places and people watch with you, I want to go to tattoo conventions with you and get fuck cancer tats, I wanna take long hot bubble baths with you, and shoot guns, I want you to watch me play volleyball and do yoga ;), I want to go to all the AA shows we possibly can, I wanna travel across the state with a wedding cake in my lap for your sister's wedding, I wanna take the afternoon and drive thru the blue ridge parkway, oooh I wanna go white water rafting with you and try to climb rocks lol, I wanna climb rope courses with you and have you encourage me the whole way, I wanna throw surprise parties for you and watch you squirm when an ostrich comes to the truck, I wanna go roller skating and ice skating with you and go to my Friends kids' bday party and have a blast playing on the water slide and throwing kids in the pool, I wanna wake up next to you everyday I can, I wanna run in the warrior dash with you after drinking all night, I wanna watch porn and football games with you, I wanna go fishing and carve pumpkins, I wanna go see the penguins with you, I wanna drink fun beers and play board games, I wanna spend Christmas with your family over and over again, and grow veggies with you, I wanna go on date night in yoga pants, I want to build things with you from pinterest and for you to come to my yoga graduation, I wanna work the beer tent with you on st. patty's day....
wait...we've done all of that...

I love our adventures together dude. I love doing everything with you. I'm excited for our next chapters of adventures...for the rest of my life.

Cheers Love

Muwah

Swimming Thoughts (take 1)

So, idk why these thoughts have been swimming around in my head, but they have. I have been saying over and over for the last 5 years I would never, ever do it again --- up until now I have been 100% certain I wouldn't nor want to do that ever again. If anyone asked, I'd be quick to answer - NOPE. Fuck that, one of the top 3 best decisions in my life was my Divorce!

So, why lately is that all I can think about?....probably tv. Yep, I blame tv shows lol. It's not that I'm constantly day dreaming about a "fairy tale wedding" - I just want to spend the rest of my life with Matty, the good, the bad, the ugly...who am I kidding...there's no ugly lol..

I'm 110% sure I was intoxicated throughout all of my previous relationships - blinded by something - always drawn to the losers...no car, no drivers license, no "real" job...probation...ugggg. When mom met matty that was her first 3 questions...job? car? drivers license? he passed the test with flying colors! :)

I was this close to shunning men all together, then Matt came along. It took me a minute to realize what he knew the first night we met. I'm convinced he has super human powers...no one can be that smart, funny, sexy, and psychic without super human powers.

I'm putting this on paper to get it out of my head - it's driving me crazy - this fucking thoughts....

I love Matty - he's become more then my bff, he's my FPE! I can always talk to him and he always listens, no judgment.

So, like I said it's not the typical girl day dreaming and pinning about dress ideas, cakes, decorations, destinations...I had all that and more once upon a time.. and we see how well that worked out. Just with the wrong person. I don't even really like diamonds...shhhhh. I want an adventure. I want to experience and enjoy life. I want a tropical vaca with us or with all our friends/family....i want to stand in front of you all and say "hey dude, I love this man! A Lot! I'm tapping out - I found what I've been searching for all my life. Someone who's just as fucked up in the head as me...no more, no less. He's the smartest, sexiest, funniest, man ever. He can fix everything, he loves drake, he's up for every wacky adventure I bring to him...whether it's polar plunging into the ocean in January or white water rafting or sleeping in the back of your truck when it's freezing outside. I am the luckiest girl in the world. You're so thoughtful, sweet, romantic - in your own way, and still completely Bad Ass...and always know how to put me in my place. You are your own person, and I love that! I believe we came into each others lives at the perfect time. December 30th, 2010.

I'm rambling now...back on track.

Then other times I think I want us to go on a vac and come back hitched lol ~

No planning, no cake, no dj, no dress, no gifts...doesn't even matter where - inside, outside, at a concert, gmas backyard, jeans, flops, and a t-shirt. I want to be with this man for the rest of my life.

I've even thought of the whole matching tats like on that show where they got "i do" on their ribs..no tattoo rings though...

These are the thoughts swimming about...i haven't said them out loud to ANYONE - this feels good. .

I've always felt I didn't need the "papers" or even want them again. So, why NOW? is it the season? working all these damn weddings every weekend? or is it him? He is the one :)

Everyone keeps saying "you have to work on relationships" "you have to compromise and make sacrifices" - what a crock of shit we have been fed all our lives. Relationships are suppose to be FUN! Adventurous! Exciting!!! Think about your bff for a moment...we're in relationships with people we like and want to play with and make memories with...This is the most awesome relationship EVER! Easy, FUN, EXCITING!!! I still get butterflies when he flies home and I"m waiting at the airport to see him get off the plane. Or when I'm walking through the airport knowing he's just over the stairs...I never want the butterflies to fly away...he's the most perfect person to complete my little family.

So, why not do it right? It doesn't have to be a wedding....commitment ceremony...tattoos....I just want to stand up in front of him, look him in the eyes, holding his hands and say I love you dude. Lets spend the rest of our lives being happy together.

I can't even believe I'm about to post this...but here it goes...

EEEK!

New Ink...again!

Look what my love got me for a late bday present in NOLA!!!! And it was at a Tattoo Convention!! EEEK! bucket list! IT's a sugar skull..day of the dead...to celebrate the ones who have passed...and I got it on father's day weekend! Love you dad! PS.. mom's mad because your tattoo is bigger then hers...go figure.

And Thank you MATTY!! making another dream come true!!

Muwah AM