Slackin'

Yeah Yeah I know I've been slacking on the blogs, for reasons I don't even know.. oh yeah I know been too busy at work to blog and too tired at night.. so I'm gonna try and squeeze one in tonight...

Update on the sabbatical....Still going STRONG!!! 13 days with no booze! Still smoking and dipping occasional...didn't smoke all weekend until tonight,  had one.. booo oh well....
Weekend was good...yoga/dinner date was Friday night had a blast with just the 3 of us lol...didn't do shit saturday it was kinda nice...and i was kinda down and out missing the hell out of Matty :( 25 more days until My plane leaves for Arkansas...oh geeze...really hittin' up the stix..lol. I can't wait to see him and be in his arms once again. Other than that... nothing really has been going on... people asked me today...so what's new... my answer...Work, VB, Yoga...not too exciting...lol. 
GAS is on the rise, still need a timing belt and regulators, doing my taxes on the first (oh shit that's tuesday :) yay)...need to clean my bathroom and wash my dirty dogs...and what else...hmmmmmmm see nothing too exciting...I miss matty soo fucking much...I like the weekends though bc we can talk more often...Damn I miss the shit out of him...hmmm alright, well i need to hit the sack.. good night all 

until next time bitches ~ muwah

i hate this

 
I just want to cry. FUCK YOU. 
I know I'm stronger then this, but FUCK YOU. 
Fighting back the tears in my eyes and the lump in my throat, FUCK YOU. 

Fuck you 1,000 miles. 
Fuck you no cell phones at work. 
FUCK YOU. 
Fuck ME for being a girl. 
Fuck you tears. 
I AM STRONGER THEN THIS.
Fuck you 30 days. 
FUCK ME for being a closet crier. 
FUCK YOU Girl Emotions. 
FUCK YOU lump in the throat, I told you to STOP.  

Fuck you Asparagus for making my pee stink. 
Fuck you 4am. 
Fuck you hour difference. 
FUCK YOU. 
Fuck you watery eyes. 
Fuck you lottery. 
Fuck ME for over analyzing EVERYTHING. 
FUCK YOU. 


Until Next Time Bitches ~ Fuck YOU.

Staying Busy

I have new countdowns I'm introducing Day 7 no alcohol and 31 days until AR! Yep that's right.. no drinking until st patty's day weekend when I will be working the beer tent for a few hours on EI!!! hahahaha and 31 more days until I fly out to more of the stix in Arkansas and visit my babbbbbbby! I still get butterflies or fireflies in my stomach when he text me, and especially when he tells me "omg I f'n miss you". It's almost as if my stomach drops down and out of my body and I can't pick it back up...does that even make sense??

This weekend was fun!! Walmart, grillin' out by myself, walking my doggies, biking, sunday funday on the vb courts getting some sun, playing lots of vb with half naked men...not a bad way to end the weekend...OH wait.. snap.. Today was a holiday too...my plan was to finish laundry, cook, walk the dogs and chill... change of plans thanks to my bitch at work Susie Q!!! I got to be a tourist in my own city for a few hours...hit up the battleship today!! It was soo much fun!! I haven't been on the ship since i think the 3rd grade when I had my boy haircut and new kids on the block tshirt on...lol.....and to make my holiday monday even better was a surprise shopping spree with momma dukes!!! new shoes, new work clothes, new play clothes, and yoga clothes!! Yay!!! Love it..and a great dinner to tie it all off!!! Still sober people.. don't even want to drink.. what I need to do is commit to some insanity...fuck I haven't even started yet... ok...tomorrow...after work....INSANITY TIME. Time to drop some serious poundage :) 


So when i thought he couldn't get any sweeter, he does....he says the freakin' sweetest shit ever..."baby, you are my soul mate i finally understand what love really is and I'm smitten"


Geeze-a-pete!! I'm totally smitten. Not only am I smitten, but mom told me tonight how much she likes him too...you may not realize this is the first guy EVER my mom has 110% approved of, liked, gotten along with....hmmmmmmm. Well, I'm off ....prob blog more tomorrow... 


until next time bitches ~ Prost

Love Love Love

I know..........I know VDay is over with and my baby is almost 1,000 miles away from me right now...but like momma told me last night with cell phones, fb, and skype it's like he's right down the road. I mean yeah it sucks I can't see see him and touch him, but just the sound of his voice everyday gets me excited! :) Hearing his voice still makes me smile from ear to ear and get all girly and those damn jacked up fireflies are back in my tummy again. He just gets me. On top of being sexy and thoughtful as hell, and goofy he's the most wonderful man I've ever met. Ahhhh! words can't describe this feeling. I LOVE IT! I love this feeling, I love when he calls me babbbbabbby...makes me melt every time. Just thought I'd let ya'll know :) 36 days to go.. damn I gotta get my ass in gear!

Until next time bitches ~ Muwah

Gonna be a good day

Whoo hooo already on fire this morning!!!! It's going to be 60 degrees today, and they said today will be the coldest day for the next few!!! Friday's suppose to get up to 72! 72!!!!!!!!!!!!!! whooo fucking hooooO!
Nothing like Gaga and a lil dip to get ya going in the morning!! I'm pumped up today, probably because I went to bed at like 930pm!! hahahahaa Meeting, Group, lunch, Group...gonna be a busy one and yoga/dinner tonight. I wanna try and get some yoga in at work today!!! maybe a nap on my new cot..hehheheee..Get up Seize the day mother fuckers!

Yeah, 1/2 way through the day and I haven't stopped! whoo hoooo Go go go today! I love it. 37 more days to go until AR!! I think we're gonna be just fine! I have projects up my sleeve to keep me busy, and we have phones, texting, sexting, pics, and skype.. we'll be just fine! Just hearing his voice this morning was awesome..I guess gma Bobbie is right, absence will make the heart grow fonder...what if i'm already fond of him? hmmm so gma is telling me it's gonna get even better?!?!? !HOLY COW!!! wow.. it's pretty fucking awesome now...mmmmm :) MATTY! muwah.

So I didn't work out yesterday, but getting back into the eating healthier and I have yoga tonight..i caught up on that thing called sleep last night! And this weekend is gonna be gorgeous so I plan on being outside doing something.. being active...oooohhh tennis anyone? it's hard to play by myself...anyways, it's a good day so far. The sun is out, work is busy, and 270 miles away there's a man loving me as much as I love him! Have a fucking great day everyone !!!

until next time bitches ~ MUWAH

i don't even want to blog today

I don't even feel like blogging today. You know what I really want to do? Pop a xannie and sleep until 4am tomorrow...damn responsibilities and work...I haven't gotten all "emo" as he calls it though since 6am...I'm trying to trick my brain into thinking he's just home and not about to be 1,000 miles away from me for 38 days. And I thought 11 days was tough.. I guess I'll find out how real this is..I know I'm strong and can handle pretty much anything (except the dentist), so we'll see. At least I have VB and Yoga to look forward to...this week.. I still have been eating crap today...well besides the leftovers I'm still munching on that Matty made yum! Then someone brought me a cupcake at work today - thanks thanks a lot.. i'm trying not to be a fat ass lol..oh and the 2 pcs of chocolate I had, not to mention the booocuuuu's of coffee I've drank today...I need to switch to water for the next 38 days.. uggg 38 days sounds like f'n forever...oh wait it is . . . I need a boost today, I need some energy..I miss him already and it's only been 6 freakin hours.. great.. alright.. I need to STOP this and get busy..DO IT.

OMG I love my Dr I work with...he just brought over his cot from his office and said I would probably use it more then him.. and I can keep it in my office!! No more napping on my hard desk YAY!!!!! heheheheheheh maybe I'll test it out today!!! hmmmmm that makes me happy! ;)

Researching flights is giving me a headache.. uhhhgggg anyone wanna fly me to AR in their private jet!??!??! Oh well.. This blog is really about nothing so I'm gonna stop now and go smoke.. yep, I'm smoking again....deal with it.

Until next time bitches ~ uggggggggggggg

ps ~ love you dude

VH1's Best Week Ever

It has been the most wonderful week ever. If we could be on VH1's Best Week ever we would! It's been so nice not only having a man around the house this week, but a real man...guess I had to go country to find him. Glad I did..and it's all thanks to Gary :)
So I was a little weary about having matty come down for a whole week due to my hectic schedule of waking up super duper early, working all day driving 3 hours a day for work, then by the time I'm home it's on to vb, yoga, dogs, dinner, shower, tv, Jersey Shore...but :) you know what? It's been freakin' incredible.. now granted I had a snow day in the middle of the week which veered me off my strict schedule of not drinking and staying out late, but he's been GREAT! He's cooked for me OMG I KNOW RIGHT!??! To have dinner ready when I get home is amazing...def not use to that. He did yoga twice this week with me AND played 3 hours of VB with me yesterday...DAMN! along with momma duke's "honey do" list for him...tearing holes in walls, putting up new lights, and latches....He's been amazing...it's actually been fun being a little domesticated this week...although I'm going to cry and be really sad when he leaves, I'm glad I have a plan of action. WORK OUT WORK OUT WORK OUT READ>>>YOGA>>>>VB>>>>. I need to get back on track..i mean it's freakin' half way thru FEB...hopefully by the time I go out to AR to see him and the band I will be a leaner lighter AnnMO!! :)

Anyways, back to him being just as awesome as me!!  I thought we had decided NO presents for VDAY...but to my surprise I got presents yesterday!!! hehehehe so freakin' thoughtful too...my favorite perfume which I was out of.. a new little black clutch bag (that fits in his jacket pocket too ;) ) and chocolate yum! Even better then presents just has been spending time with him; whether it's been playing vb, yoga, taking the dogs to the beach, just laying on the couch napping, and my favorite - bubble baths :) :) :) Oh yeah.. I almost forgot I haven't blogged all weekend... well, if you've been on my FB you know by now...it's official official...he's my boyfriend :) !!! He totally freakin' knows me too..he asked me by asking if I thought we should change our fb status'...hehehehehe how cute!!! MUWAH why fight it right?! I've never been happier...still a little freaked out and scared, BUT I'm happy and never have been this happy or felt this way..so I'm going with it!!

Until Next Time BITCHES ~ MUWAH