July 7th, 2012
While I'm ranting....What's up with all these damn "engagement pics" on facebook?
Is it me or aren't they super annoying?....
They're so cheesy and staged. So unnatural looking uggg makes me want to stracth my eyes out...ikr.. horrible. Isn't changing your status on fb enough? before fb didn't people send hand written announcements? I'm not the wedding expert...I just know what annoys me.
If it were me, I would like to go to a carnival and take pics in the photo booth - you know the ones that have 4 pics in a row...that would my MY PHOTOS!!! In fact we should do that this summer - photo booth pics! ! !
In addition to my previous blog, it's still swimming. Faster in my head..probably because I haven't said it out loud...was gonna tell the girls last night, but didn't...talking to him last night, this morning, texting ... I just love him more and more everyday...this is all his fault really lol.
I dont' want engagement pics
I don't want a rehearsal dinner
I dont' want the dress
I don't want 200 people
I just want HIM - I wanna walk to frozen waterfalls and video him walking across the ice, I wanna jump in freezing water with him, I wanna walk through a pumpkin patch and watch the stars in the mountains with cows in the back yard, I wanna ride roller coasters with you, I want wild animals to ram your truck so I can feed them out of my hands and take pictures, I want you to drag me to two weddings in one summer (and I hate going to weddings), I want to travel to all the places you work, I want to be on bourbon street with you, I wanna go to MC parties and drink whiskey with you, I want to sit in public places and people watch with you, I want to go to tattoo conventions with you and get fuck cancer tats, I wanna take long hot bubble baths with you, and shoot guns, I want you to watch me play volleyball and do yoga ;), I want to go to all the AA shows we possibly can, I wanna travel across the state with a wedding cake in my lap for your sister's wedding, I wanna take the afternoon and drive thru the blue ridge parkway, oooh I wanna go white water rafting with you and try to climb rocks lol, I wanna climb rope courses with you and have you encourage me the whole way, I wanna throw surprise parties for you and watch you squirm when an ostrich comes to the truck, I wanna go roller skating and ice skating with you and go to my Friends kids' bday party and have a blast playing on the water slide and throwing kids in the pool, I wanna wake up next to you everyday I can, I wanna run in the warrior dash with you after drinking all night, I wanna watch porn and football games with you, I wanna go fishing and carve pumpkins, I wanna go see the penguins with you, I wanna drink fun beers and play board games, I wanna spend Christmas with your family over and over again, and grow veggies with you, I wanna go on date night in yoga pants, I want to build things with you from pinterest and for you to come to my yoga graduation, I wanna work the beer tent with you on st. patty's day....
wait...we've done all of that...
I love our adventures together dude. I love doing everything with you. I'm excited for our next chapters of adventures...for the rest of my life.
Cheers Love
Muwah
Monday, July 9, 2012
Swimming Thoughts (take 1)
So, idk why these thoughts have been swimming around in my head, but they have. I have been saying over and over for the last 5 years I would never, ever do it again --- up until now I have been 100% certain I wouldn't nor want to do that ever again. If anyone asked, I'd be quick to answer - NOPE. Fuck that, one of the top 3 best decisions in my life was my Divorce!
So, why lately is that all I can think about?....probably tv. Yep, I blame tv shows lol. It's not that I'm constantly day dreaming about a "fairy tale wedding" - I just want to spend the rest of my life with Matty, the good, the bad, the ugly...who am I kidding...there's no ugly lol..
I'm 110% sure I was intoxicated throughout all of my previous relationships - blinded by something - always drawn to the losers...no car, no drivers license, no "real" job...probation...ugggg. When mom met matty that was her first 3 questions...job? car? drivers license? he passed the test with flying colors! :)
I was this close to shunning men all together, then Matt came along. It took me a minute to realize what he knew the first night we met. I'm convinced he has super human powers...no one can be that smart, funny, sexy, and psychic without super human powers.
I'm putting this on paper to get it out of my head - it's driving me crazy - this fucking thoughts....
I love Matty - he's become more then my bff, he's my FPE! I can always talk to him and he always listens, no judgment.
So, like I said it's not the typical girl day dreaming and pinning about dress ideas, cakes, decorations, destinations...I had all that and more once upon a time.. and we see how well that worked out. Just with the wrong person. I don't even really like diamonds...shhhhh. I want an adventure. I want to experience and enjoy life. I want a tropical vaca with us or with all our friends/family....i want to stand in front of you all and say "hey dude, I love this man! A Lot! I'm tapping out - I found what I've been searching for all my life. Someone who's just as fucked up in the head as me...no more, no less. He's the smartest, sexiest, funniest, man ever. He can fix everything, he loves drake, he's up for every wacky adventure I bring to him...whether it's polar plunging into the ocean in January or white water rafting or sleeping in the back of your truck when it's freezing outside. I am the luckiest girl in the world. You're so thoughtful, sweet, romantic - in your own way, and still completely Bad Ass...and always know how to put me in my place. You are your own person, and I love that! I believe we came into each others lives at the perfect time. December 30th, 2010.
I'm rambling now...back on track.
Then other times I think I want us to go on a vac and come back hitched lol ~
No planning, no cake, no dj, no dress, no gifts...doesn't even matter where - inside, outside, at a concert, gmas backyard, jeans, flops, and a t-shirt. I want to be with this man for the rest of my life.
I've even thought of the whole matching tats like on that show where they got "i do" on their ribs..no tattoo rings though...
These are the thoughts swimming about...i haven't said them out loud to ANYONE - this feels good. .
I've always felt I didn't need the "papers" or even want them again. So, why NOW? is it the season? working all these damn weddings every weekend? or is it him? He is the one :)
Everyone keeps saying "you have to work on relationships" "you have to compromise and make sacrifices" - what a crock of shit we have been fed all our lives. Relationships are suppose to be FUN! Adventurous! Exciting!!! Think about your bff for a moment...we're in relationships with people we like and want to play with and make memories with...This is the most awesome relationship EVER! Easy, FUN, EXCITING!!! I still get butterflies when he flies home and I"m waiting at the airport to see him get off the plane. Or when I'm walking through the airport knowing he's just over the stairs...I never want the butterflies to fly away...he's the most perfect person to complete my little family.
So, why not do it right? It doesn't have to be a wedding....commitment ceremony...tattoos....I just want to stand up in front of him, look him in the eyes, holding his hands and say I love you dude. Lets spend the rest of our lives being happy together.
I can't even believe I'm about to post this...but here it goes...
EEEK!
So, why lately is that all I can think about?....probably tv. Yep, I blame tv shows lol. It's not that I'm constantly day dreaming about a "fairy tale wedding" - I just want to spend the rest of my life with Matty, the good, the bad, the ugly...who am I kidding...there's no ugly lol..
I'm 110% sure I was intoxicated throughout all of my previous relationships - blinded by something - always drawn to the losers...no car, no drivers license, no "real" job...probation...ugggg. When mom met matty that was her first 3 questions...job? car? drivers license? he passed the test with flying colors! :)
I was this close to shunning men all together, then Matt came along. It took me a minute to realize what he knew the first night we met. I'm convinced he has super human powers...no one can be that smart, funny, sexy, and psychic without super human powers.
I'm putting this on paper to get it out of my head - it's driving me crazy - this fucking thoughts....
I love Matty - he's become more then my bff, he's my FPE! I can always talk to him and he always listens, no judgment.
So, like I said it's not the typical girl day dreaming and pinning about dress ideas, cakes, decorations, destinations...I had all that and more once upon a time.. and we see how well that worked out. Just with the wrong person. I don't even really like diamonds...shhhhh. I want an adventure. I want to experience and enjoy life. I want a tropical vaca with us or with all our friends/family....i want to stand in front of you all and say "hey dude, I love this man! A Lot! I'm tapping out - I found what I've been searching for all my life. Someone who's just as fucked up in the head as me...no more, no less. He's the smartest, sexiest, funniest, man ever. He can fix everything, he loves drake, he's up for every wacky adventure I bring to him...whether it's polar plunging into the ocean in January or white water rafting or sleeping in the back of your truck when it's freezing outside. I am the luckiest girl in the world. You're so thoughtful, sweet, romantic - in your own way, and still completely Bad Ass...and always know how to put me in my place. You are your own person, and I love that! I believe we came into each others lives at the perfect time. December 30th, 2010.
I'm rambling now...back on track.
Then other times I think I want us to go on a vac and come back hitched lol ~
No planning, no cake, no dj, no dress, no gifts...doesn't even matter where - inside, outside, at a concert, gmas backyard, jeans, flops, and a t-shirt. I want to be with this man for the rest of my life.
I've even thought of the whole matching tats like on that show where they got "i do" on their ribs..no tattoo rings though...
These are the thoughts swimming about...i haven't said them out loud to ANYONE - this feels good. .
I've always felt I didn't need the "papers" or even want them again. So, why NOW? is it the season? working all these damn weddings every weekend? or is it him? He is the one :)
Everyone keeps saying "you have to work on relationships" "you have to compromise and make sacrifices" - what a crock of shit we have been fed all our lives. Relationships are suppose to be FUN! Adventurous! Exciting!!! Think about your bff for a moment...we're in relationships with people we like and want to play with and make memories with...This is the most awesome relationship EVER! Easy, FUN, EXCITING!!! I still get butterflies when he flies home and I"m waiting at the airport to see him get off the plane. Or when I'm walking through the airport knowing he's just over the stairs...I never want the butterflies to fly away...he's the most perfect person to complete my little family.
So, why not do it right? It doesn't have to be a wedding....commitment ceremony...tattoos....I just want to stand up in front of him, look him in the eyes, holding his hands and say I love you dude. Lets spend the rest of our lives being happy together.
I can't even believe I'm about to post this...but here it goes...
EEEK!
New Ink...again!
Look what my love got me for a late bday present in NOLA!!!! And it was at a Tattoo Convention!! EEEK! bucket list! IT's a sugar skull..day of the dead...to celebrate the ones who have passed...and I got it on father's day weekend! Love you dad! PS.. mom's mad because your tattoo is bigger then hers...go figure.
And Thank you MATTY!! making another dream come true!!
Muwah AM
Thursday, June 21, 2012
I lost my monkey on Bourbon St.
What a glorious mini vacation this past weekend!!! My honey flew me down to Baton Rouge, LA to see him :) I'm one lucky girl!! Our plan was to go down to NOLA Friday night, kick it with our friends, then chill back at Matt's Saturday...I love making plans, then finding better ones!
From the airport we drove down to New Orleans and met up with Stu - who by the way is the best host EVER!! And I'm sure I said that 1,000 times Friday night on Bourbon St lol. He hooked it up with a free hotel all weekend, free parking, and our own personal tour guide of Bourbon Street Friday night!!! After being in our room for 5 minutes, Matty looks at me and says, yeah I think we'll stay 2 nights :) !!! YAY! Friday night was a blast!!! Our goal was to EAT before drinking even though we weren't hungry..but we knew where the night would take us if we didn't... So we ate in the Casino of course!! Matts first time...:) We had a lot of first this weekend...like always...and like fifty ;)
We did some gambling and drinking..then all headed down to Bourbon Street!! Check that off my bucket list!!! Was a great crowd!! Not too many though. I felt like Bourbon Street just kept going and going...it was awesome for my bar ADD! and drinking in and out of the bars- amazing!! NOLA has it down!! No cover charges...drinking on balcony's!! I could get use to this town!!! Then OMG we ate THE BEST Burrito EVER!!! We were chillin in this bar...and all of the sudden got super hungry...Stu looks at us and says, "oh they have tacos here". Matt and I looked at each other, mouth's dropped open! SAWWEET! We stood at the Taco bar, I ordered a veggie Burrito and proceeded to stuff my face for the next 5-7 minutes...no talking, no drinking, just pure stuffing my face with the most delicious tasting Burrito I have ever had! Thank you Burrito bar!
After that, I just remember thanking Stu for being the best host ever...walking down Bourbon Street what felt like kept going for miles...and thinking to myself or out loud..we should do a hangover/beer fest movie here!! Because frankly that's what I felt like :)
Being we had walked for "miles"...matt and I were ready to hit the hotel...we cabbed it back...just to walk to the CVS for contact solution for yours truly! Poor Matt practically drug me down the street...whining it was too far lol.. God I love that man! Back in the room..i'm pretty sure he took out my contacts because that's what he does when I've had one too many... and hey... it was bourbon street! He's so fucking thoughtful...he stayed more sober then me so I could have a good time - my first time on bourbon St.. Damn I'm lucky! :)
Saturday was our day to be a tourist.. walk around, shop, do a little day drinking.. eat, listen to some amazing jazz on the streets...see the Mississippi River! SHOP! Got to see good ole Bourbon St during the day :) then it was off to another first...our very first Tattoo Convention!!! Boy did we luck out on this weekend!!! Had no clue it was going on.. always wanted to go to one.. and always wanted to get inked at one... So we did.. My honey wine, dined, and tatted me up this weekend!! (my very own christian grey)
Saturday evening was glorious as well!! We stayed in bed ;)
Sunday time to adventure out to where he's living and eat some crawfish and of course bless his camper! It was a fantastic mini vaca with my honey and friends! Can't wait to go back!
Cheers ~
From the airport we drove down to New Orleans and met up with Stu - who by the way is the best host EVER!! And I'm sure I said that 1,000 times Friday night on Bourbon St lol. He hooked it up with a free hotel all weekend, free parking, and our own personal tour guide of Bourbon Street Friday night!!! After being in our room for 5 minutes, Matty looks at me and says, yeah I think we'll stay 2 nights :) !!! YAY! Friday night was a blast!!! Our goal was to EAT before drinking even though we weren't hungry..but we knew where the night would take us if we didn't... So we ate in the Casino of course!! Matts first time...:) We had a lot of first this weekend...like always...and like fifty ;)
We did some gambling and drinking..then all headed down to Bourbon Street!! Check that off my bucket list!!! Was a great crowd!! Not too many though. I felt like Bourbon Street just kept going and going...it was awesome for my bar ADD! and drinking in and out of the bars- amazing!! NOLA has it down!! No cover charges...drinking on balcony's!! I could get use to this town!!! Then OMG we ate THE BEST Burrito EVER!!! We were chillin in this bar...and all of the sudden got super hungry...Stu looks at us and says, "oh they have tacos here". Matt and I looked at each other, mouth's dropped open! SAWWEET! We stood at the Taco bar, I ordered a veggie Burrito and proceeded to stuff my face for the next 5-7 minutes...no talking, no drinking, just pure stuffing my face with the most delicious tasting Burrito I have ever had! Thank you Burrito bar!
After that, I just remember thanking Stu for being the best host ever...walking down Bourbon Street what felt like kept going for miles...and thinking to myself or out loud..we should do a hangover/beer fest movie here!! Because frankly that's what I felt like :)
Being we had walked for "miles"...matt and I were ready to hit the hotel...we cabbed it back...just to walk to the CVS for contact solution for yours truly! Poor Matt practically drug me down the street...whining it was too far lol.. God I love that man! Back in the room..i'm pretty sure he took out my contacts because that's what he does when I've had one too many... and hey... it was bourbon street! He's so fucking thoughtful...he stayed more sober then me so I could have a good time - my first time on bourbon St.. Damn I'm lucky! :)
Saturday was our day to be a tourist.. walk around, shop, do a little day drinking.. eat, listen to some amazing jazz on the streets...see the Mississippi River! SHOP! Got to see good ole Bourbon St during the day :) then it was off to another first...our very first Tattoo Convention!!! Boy did we luck out on this weekend!!! Had no clue it was going on.. always wanted to go to one.. and always wanted to get inked at one... So we did.. My honey wine, dined, and tatted me up this weekend!! (my very own christian grey)
Saturday evening was glorious as well!! We stayed in bed ;)
Sunday time to adventure out to where he's living and eat some crawfish and of course bless his camper! It was a fantastic mini vaca with my honey and friends! Can't wait to go back!
Cheers ~
Monday, June 11, 2012
50 Shades
Ok, Ok.. i have succumb to reading 50 Shades of Grey!!! OMG and am I glad I have..probably not the best time to read it though while Matty's gone because now I'm even more horny then usual... Jesus Christ this book is good!!! I can't fucking put it down!! I'm not a big reader either...but DAMN! I want a Red Room of Pain!!! I want Matt to read this and become Christian Grey..and all his 50 shades of fucked upness... this is one hell of a book.
I have been putting this book off, mainly because of all the buzz...thinking it's a fad on fb... it'll pass. Until HB said to me super serious like.."DUDE - YOU. HAVE.TO.READ.THIS.BOOK. and since she's our lil "nazi" I ran out and bought it...last week I think.. didn't really get into it until a few days ago...and boy... once chapter 8 hits...BAM. BOOM.. DONE SON!! Can not stop reading....the chapters are short too, which is good!! but I don't' want to stop.. I want to know more, learn more...damn it MATT!!! I wish you were here....you may just come home to a contract and our own RED ROOM OF PAIN ;) hhehehehhehe
I think all men should read this .... that way they know how to do a little foreplay....that's the shit that gets us all hot and bothered....this is just a very very well written book! Bravo!!! Bravo!!! I can't wait to finish it and read the others...and more importantly lend mine out to friends...and start on a contract lol....I wonder if my ceiling can hold a swing??? hmmmmm I know someone who has one though....
Matty, you have until August to read this book :) or else...
CHeers
Thursday, June 7, 2012
Back at it...again
So...I'm back at the insanity again...why not right!! I can't seem to drop these 10lbs I neeeeeeeeeeeeed to desperately shed...so it's a new month...new training regiment...I started on the 1st of the month...so today is my "rest" day...I've been doing the videos after work at home...after of course I walk the dogs, sweep the house...so about 7pm...last night I was exhausted from road tripping to Wilmington and back with 2 4-legged kids...I said fuck it..i'll get up early and do it lol...the thing is I DID!! I woke up at 330am..and kicked ass! walked the dogs afterwards, showered...bam! done for the day... well besides the 2 yoga classes I'm teaching today!!! I've planned it well too.. THursdays this month I'm teaching after work to the EI EMS station.. so no time for insanity after work...but you know what? I enjoyed working out early!! Waking up at 330am SUCKS..but totally worth it.. I feel Great...besides the pains of getting older....my right lower back hurts...left hip hurts... I need a massage!!!!
I figured, Matt's gone... I need to use this time to shape up!!! I'm tired of being blah...I mean I'm healthy, I kick butt in yoga... but still not 100% happy with the way I look...uggg especially in pictures... geeze a Pete!!! so I'm fucking DOING IT...and doing it all month.. that's my goal!!! tomorrow will be one week on insanity...I can do this... I want this...I'm focused now..
here we go... cheers ya'll
AM
I figured, Matt's gone... I need to use this time to shape up!!! I'm tired of being blah...I mean I'm healthy, I kick butt in yoga... but still not 100% happy with the way I look...uggg especially in pictures... geeze a Pete!!! so I'm fucking DOING IT...and doing it all month.. that's my goal!!! tomorrow will be one week on insanity...I can do this... I want this...I'm focused now..
here we go... cheers ya'll
AM
Thursday, May 31, 2012
2 kids vs 1
So, Matt and I recently adopted Harley - a 5 year old English Bulldog! Matt was home for the weekend, so it was wonderful. Lots of people in and out, lots of love for both our kids..Drake and Harley. They seem to be getting along well, until feeding time...they have to eat separate, and they are on different eating schedules..so the baby gate is up while I'm at work. Harley stays in the Kitchen/Living room because he likes to pee on the trashcan and puke on the floor and couch...and my sweet baby Drake stays in my room with his food and toys and moms bed...Haryley has taken over Drake's bed...he's ok with that though...So, this week it's just been me and the kids...routine is still the same..I have to take more poop bags on our walks because dear ole Harley has to poop all the time! Wiping 8 feet instead of 4, and wiping Harley's butt every time he poops...well before he comes back inside, because apparently Bulldogs have dirty butts...and they're smelly, and big, and shed...I'm adjusting...I've been trying to let Harley sleep in bed, but he smells...and was just bathed Monday...I never realized how much Drake does NOT smell like a dog...So now Harley is a floor dog...no couch, no bed. Which I'm sure he is laying on the couch as I type. He is a mess! A cute, lovable, mess, but a mess. Matt told me last night, Drake is our son and Harley is our dog! Makes perfect sense to me!! Drake is my baby! and always will be. Can't wait for daddy to be home to help out with the family! We miss you! We are gonna have one hell of a Christmas card this year!
Cheers ~
Cheers ~
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