ALL FIXED UP

Not only did I show up and go through with it, I'm healing up quite nicely!! Yep, I'm all fixed up! No babies coming out of this peekachoo! I'm stoked, couldn't be happier :) Now, it's definitely not for everyone, but if you know you know! One of my bff's just announced she's pregger's....................................................with TWINS! OMG! I can't even begin to imagine...I guess people are getting their shit together these days...I'm super happy, scared, and nervous all at the same time for her...i mean at one point in our lives this chick was and could have been my twin..damn that was a looooong time ago when we were like 18 yo hahahah! A) I can't believe she's finally having babies and B) I can't believe this year will be her 11 year anniversary married to "what's his name"...we were never fond of each other ;) Oh well ~ go forth my friend into baby land...there goes the freakin' neighborhood ugggg...just don't ask me to be in the delivery room, or show me pics of anything popping out of your va-j-j

As for me, I'm healing up fast and quite nicely! :) NOt working out yet, but come wed I'll be back on the vb courts and hopefully running.. still a lil sore to cough, sneeze, laugh, and use the bathroom.. but other then that I'm rocking! Thanks to super great aftercare from MATTY! And Mom! Mom took me to the hospital and stayed with me until I was drugged up and passed out..when the put the GOOD IV in and asked if I could feel anything.. i was like no you just stuck me.. geeze.. the lady said.. you will.. sure enough as soon as we were rolling down the hallway otw to the OR room.. which was really cool.. I felt like I was in an episode of ER or HOUSE! LOVE IT :) I could see the lights in the hallway move and people's face's started looking funny hahah.. by the time we got to the OR room.. I'm guessing I was pretty out of it.. the last thing I remember i was looking up and said "look at all the pretty lights" it reminded me of spot lights like on stage hahaha then not sure how they woke me up, but when I came too, I asked, are we done yet? and sure enough we were! super quick like 45min or less.. home by 11am! Like I said, everything went smoothly for my first time "under the knife" I'd definitely do it again! :) Maybe a boob lift or something! :) whoo hoooooo

Until Next Time ~ holla

This is IT!

Well, This is the week!!! 

Surgery Thursday morning...ekkkeeekkkk! I'll try and explain my emotions as of now: Excited, nervous, happy, nervous, ready for this to happen....i guess that's it.. def a lil nervous since the only surgery I've ever had is oral...actually thinking about going "under the knife" is a lil scary...even though they don't consider it Major surgery anymore and go thru the belly button.. it's still going under ... fears: what if something goes wrong? what if I don't wake up? I know the % is slim, but it's still in the back of my mind..the what if's...In a perfect world...I'll go in, the good docs will dope me up, i won't feel a thing, I'll wake up, eat some more meds, go home, nap, and then the best part of the day will arrive to take care of me, watch over me....rub my fee ;).... and yes, he's been warned that I am not the world's greatest patient..i tend to get whiny and cranky...but I think having him here in general will be AWESOME!!! So, baby just remember I warned you and there's fishing poles in the garage :) I love you Matty!! Can't wait to wake up and see your face!!

Until Next Time ~ Rock on

crazy in love

He's really gone and made a fucking romantic out of me.. and I have no idea why I'm sharing this email I sent him a few days ago, but I am.. call it bordem or something idk....but here it is:

just wanted to say I LOVE YOU! MUWAH I love love love YOU dude! ! ! Some kind-of-crazy LOVE YOU!! not like crazy crazy stalk you cut you up in little pcs crazy, but CRAZY like think about you all the time.. want to hear you snore next to me, pull your hair, grab your chin hair, nuzzle my head into your chest, rub your back, lay in a bubble bath all night, show you my new yoga moves (in bed), shot gun a PBR on the beach with you kind-of-CRAZY!!!! I LOVE YOU BABY! hope you're having a wonderful day mmmm hmmmmmm MY BABY! :) :) :) :) :)

I know.. I don't know what it is, but he's totally flipped me over and turned me.. :)

Until Next Time  ~ MUUWAAH

He said YES!!!!

Yesterday was a VERY EXCITING DAY for me, as I had my appointment with the doc to see about getting fixed! (aka tubaligation...burning of my tubes) Whoo hooo he said yes!!! We talked, did a pap, talked some more, and scheduled the surgery for June 9th! Whoo hoooo I'm excited it's so soon, I'll be completely healed by the 4th of July and the Wedding! yay!!

Then to top off a great doc visit, HB came down and we headed off to the Farm Market almost in SC...totally worth the drive too!!! Got tons of fresh food for the weekend!!  Grilled some tofu last night with my new seasoning "moijto lime" and fresh cilantro!! Hmmm yum!! Ooooohh and the Margarita spicy grilling sauce is the SHIT!!!! Love love love it!! Went for a run, grilled, watched the finale of American Idol with momma dukes and headed off to sleepy land...Only bad thing was Matty had to work late late and was up at the crack of dawn to get it again...so we didn't talk this morning bc I was still in sleepy land :(

Until Next Time ~ hmmmmm

Lucky, Blessed, Whatever you wanna call it

Remind me to never walk into a circle of women and say hey what's going on...when clearly there is no food, cocktails, or shopping going on...boy did I walk into shit...ugggg
What do you do when everyone around you is fed up with their man and you're not? My advice people don't want to hear...well except HB...she can take most anything! I've been there, done that, and like I've said before, burned the marriage license and bought a convertible =-) Bottom line if life is if you're not happy in what you're doing, where you're living, or who you're with ---- GET THE FUCK OUT. Move on, Move up, and go shopping =-) Shopping always makes me feel better...nothing like ice cream and retail therapy to cure a gloom day. Anyways...I'm not trying to be that girl who thinks they have it all together, because clearly I don't..but I've learned a lot in my 20 some years of living and fighting my way through all the shit...speaking of shit.. OMG I ran into my ex husband yesterday while shopping for mom's bday gifts.. ugggg .. just a wave and a hey is all we did which is WONDERFUl...i can't remember the last time we spoke ...I was in and out of the store sooo fast..he looked old! hahahhahaa yay!
Back to the point.. if I ever had one..I guess what I'm trying to get at is I've been through some pretty hideous relationships over the years, a horrible marriage, an even worse relationship...until I woke up and said NO FUCKING MORE...Lady Gaga Helps too...listening to her on the elliptical really really got me through some shit!! Thanks Gaga! It wasn't until the last one, I was like wtf am I doing wasting all my time with the wrong person.. I even contemplated switching teams entirely..hmmmmm but then here Matty came into my life. After day 3 of just hanging out he told me I was "the one" and I laughed...I was like nooooooo you have it allllll wrong.. I don't want a relationship.. I'm doing me..you're more then welcome to hang out and try and keep up...but NO Relationship, and defiantly none of this "you're the one" bullshit...damn country boy made a romantic out of me...don't get it twisted.. I still have one foot on the ground, well maybe a big toe, but no longer am I bitter about falling in love and having all your dreams come true.
What I do know now though is you have to MAKE YOUR OWN RULES, sometimes as you go, and it's ok to break them and color outside the line with black light ink. You have to make your own fairy tale - which mine does not consist of a white wedding with cake and bells and pictures and the pitter patter of little annmo's running around. My fairy tale consists of riding around the island with my bestie and having the best what do I call him? more than a boyfriend...my .... oh I know the cheezy cliché "soul mate" to run with, do yoga, play vb, travel, see concerts, kick it on the beach, fly around the world....go fishing with, play with drake, drink some beers, cook out...i don't need anything fancy anymore. All I want is to wake up next to Matty, roll over into his arms, and never let him go.....gush I know.
Like he said earlier today, bc someone he knew was bitching about relationships too...it's NOT hard..it’s not supposed to be work (you work all day, who wants to come home and work? fuck that..i wanna come home and play).. I always thought you had to "work at it" or make sacrifices, or compromise...but you don't.. I get to be me, he gets to be him and we just fit. We fit perfectly together..which feels AMAZING! =-) It helps he's just as awesome as I am...he's just so chill and easy to be around.. I enjoy talking to him and listening to him..I'm genuinely interested in what he has to say...he's a smart mother fucker! Helps he's sexy too! and has tattoos...that's been the problem.. dating "boys" with no ink...shame on me lol. I don't know why it's as easy as it is...it just is...maybe it's the communication..we actually talk to each other...have similar interest...both have the been there done that t-shirt...hmmmm I love it! I feel blessed everyday that Garrett brought Matty to the beach...it's changed my whole outlook on love

Until Next Time Bitches ~ Stop your bitching and find yourself a country man :)

Waxing My Peekachoo

Alright folks.. here we go...One more thing crossed off my bucket list!!!
I finally bucked up and got my Peekachoo Waxed!! :) YAY!! Now great thought, consideration, and consult with my doc went into this.. a lot of "what if's" kept popping in my head. Like, what if it bleeds, or rips off the skin, or I brake out in a massive rash all before my road trip to see Matty...I've been trying to do this for a few months now.. before I flew to Arkansas I wanted to get it done, but never did.. so finally a few weeks ago.. I was at work looking up some spas in Wilmington I like and feel comfortable with.. and called Bangz...I asked for the first avaialbe waxing please! The lady asked me if I perfered male or female...hmmmmm I never thought about it.. I figured this was going to be a lot like a massage versus the gyno so I answered with a casual "it doesn't matter, whatever's first". Knowing what I know now, I'm glad I ended up with KEN! He's like the Peekachoo Waxing Guru.. Ladies, Men... if you need a waxing look him up!!! FANTASTIC.. but we'll get into that later. Anyways.. so before I had my waxing I had an appointment with my gyno..a woman doc who I love! So as we're chatting and she's scoping out my peekachoo.. i apologize for so much hair lol...and said.. i'm growing it out for my waxing tomorrow... :/. I tell her I've never done it, but have been wanting too.. and she says NOOOO don't do it.. I'm thinking yeah right lady.. this is on my bucket list.. I want to wax it yo.. Then my doc gives me a quick waxing 101 and told me if I'm going to wax just leave a little on top of the hood/peekachoo area for protection hmmmm i thought.. I never thought of that, thanks DOC!
After consulting with my doc, and extensive research on the internet aka google...i was more prepared then before.. thank God.. I had no idea there were so many different types of waxing.. all I knew was bikini and brazilian.. oh noooo just take a look below what I discovered in my search for the perfect waxing:

Not only are there different styles, shapes, and names...there are names within the names..other names used to refer to a Brazilian Wax are Full, G Wax, Hollywood Wax, The Sphynx, Playboy Bikini Wax, or French Bikini Wax...Geeeze-a-pete! As I see these pics I'm thinking the triangles look alright..and that I'd like to keep a little hair ohh or maybe the heart.. but that looks hard.. maybe not for my first time. All I know is the doc said keep a little hair to protect the peekachoo!

I got to the spa.. oh I forgot to mention.. i have to go teach yoga at Jamie's with the girls right after.. EEEKK. So, I check in, they walk me up and I meet Ken..just like his pic on the website.. well much better in person! So we go into the room and right off the bat I tell him it's my first time, and this is on my bucket list, so he is helping me cross of one of my items! he chuckles, I think bc he didn't know exactly what to think of me yet.. here I am in my work clothes, pink yoga mat flip flops, and full sleeve.. nice lil combo...He tells me not to worry and to take off my pants cover up with the towel, and he'll return. So of course I had been driving all the way from work like an hour and a half.. so I was nervous about being hot and sweaty down there so I brought wipes!! yay!! Dropped trough, wiped, and prepared myself on the table.. very comfortable, like a massage table! Ken returns and right off the bat we are laughing cracking jokes which is great! I tell him the doc said to leave a lil on top, but other then that I need a waxing! Remember in my head I'm thinking the triangle right.. hahahahhaa oh noooooo.

So he picks up the towel, and says let's see what we're working with.. oh yes, this will do quite nicely.. awsome I say! let's do it! He talks about this may hurt, but just for a second. He's telling me about other hairy hairy clients making me laugh...now I'm using my breathing techniques as he's about to drop the wax on.. he starts with the top of the peekachoo...which I thought was the most painful...not painful cry, but painful let out a small sreeekkkkckckttt or whoooooo as I did hahah too funny. The warm wax was the best part! It felt amazing!!! I would do it again just to feel the warm wax down there! So, Ken does the top, works on the sides as I'm laying on my back with one leg bent and one straight with my hands above my head holding the table...so now I think that was easy we're all done! Oh nooo noo nooo not done yet.. we have to do the inside of the peekachoo area and the lips OMG i'm thinking are you serious?? you're gonna be down all up in that waxing the lips and everything?!? omg omg omg..boy I wish matt was here to hold my hand...I told Ken that too.. he said oh he can come in.. :( he's not here I said.. he's in Arkansas.. but I'm seeing him this weekend.. so surprising him with the waxing :) !!! Ken was a fan of this!! Oh Matt's gonna love this he said! :) so the inside of the peekachoo done..no pain..then the lips..no pain!! Amazing! Now I know we're done!! Then Ken says ok flip over..WHAT? I raised my eyebrows at him and said hahah you're joking right...no he said it's included in the brazialian...oh is that what we're doing I said?! hahah funny.. I don't think so dude.. He said trust me.. it won't even hurt.. the skin in the back is tougher.. the hard part is over with...hmmmmmmmmmmm. As i'm "flipping" over he says, but lay flat don't flip over to all fours..that will make me laugh..so then I laugh.. he tells me how some waxer's like for us to be on all fours for this part of the waxing, Ken doesn't not.. ! yay! this is weird I tell him.. I wish I had a camera on my face at this point..I'm asking him, you're gonna put the wax where? and be all up in the butt..omg omg omg.. I can't believe this is happening I tell him.. we just met lol.. So he dives right in, wax into the butt, then rips it off and repeats several times..goes by fast and smoothly though!! Now, I"M DONE!! 45 minutes later and some good laughs, I have a nice clean, bare, but not all bare peekachoo!! He called mine the Sphinx bc he left some on top lol.. too funny. I had no clue there were so many styles, names, and definetly was not aware that they wax your asshole.. gives a whole new meaning to asshole vaughan! lol But, he was totally right about being cleaner, and hygiene purposes it's great. He advised me that eventing to take a warm bath to soak the peekachoo..i did not tell him I was going straight to yoga afterwards...oops. Well, I did it! I waxed the peekachoo, and weeks later I'm still in love with it!!! I recommend it to all! I look at strangers, co-workers, and randoms and wonder to myself hmmm I wonder if they wax, and if so what they have going on down there...

Until Next Time ~ Wax it off yo

Thanks Mooooom

So, I started today like any other of my Friday Mornings....yoga on the ward! As I'm getting out of session, one of the corpsmen comes up to me, swings his arm around my shoulder and says in a low soft voice, "so your mom and I were talking, and I don't know how we got on topic, but your WAXING came up" OOOOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMGGGGGGGGGGGG Jaw Drops...trying to keep it together of course for the other co-workers around me and patients...You should have seen the look on face I gave him...nothing is safe with mom... this is why I don't tell YOU EVERYTHING. Thanks MOM... Gooooooooooooooooooooooooossshhhhh (from Napoleon Dynamite).....

I'm packing up my yoga stuff, putting the radio away, the mats...and here we are chatting it up about my WAXING! geeze-a-pete!!! He continues and says, yeah I was wondering where you go bc my wife and I want to, but it's really hard to find someone to do a guy..hahhaahahah awesome!! now I'm chuckling and smiling!! oooohhhh I gotcha!! You want to wax down there!!! Fantastic! So of course I was like, YEAH DUDE!! I probably have his card in my bag...that's ok right? I asked him...it's a guy who waxes me... no problem he says.. haha so here I am handing off Ken's (from BANGZ in WIlmington) card to a male co-worker to get waxed!!! LOVE MY LIFE!! Then we proceed to discuss how awesome the waxing is for hygiene purposes...I was not discussing my Peekachoo waxing benefits with Matty with my co-workers...male co-workers at that.. just said and of course Matty Loves it ;) !

Until Next Time ~ Happy Waxing!