NO Meat, No fast food, No Alcohol ( well i am playing vb today so maybe i'll have one hahahah, depends if vb guy buys me one lol)
NO smokes, again I'm playing vb...so maybe i will, maybe i won't.. hmmmmm
Did you guys realize this is the first weekend since the 30th of December I haven't been or seen Matty Ice...ikr...But it's ok, I'm super busy this weekend and I can clean the house and wash my dirty dogs..things that have been lacking due to my traveling the state hahahahah..I hate I'm missing HB's work party...i mean open bar, tuna, crab cakes...but I gotta have a weekend to myself.. it's kinda nice.. well so far.. oh shit.. i gotta go.. vb time...
whoo hooo I didn't smoke or drink at vb today! My friend asked, Annmo, where's your beer?? i was like i'm on sabbatical.. everyone laughed.. heheheh vb was good.. didn't win a lot, but had a blast..and there was some nice eye candy out there today..the doubles men's team seem to be practicing today...hmm hmmmm
Oh how I miss Matty Ice.. I guess I could take drake for a walk..or go running, or something...then a bath and nap are def in my future..well I did walk/jog with Drake today, bathed him, bathed me lol, no nap yet..but I get to sleep in tomorrow sooooo excited for that to take place. I can't remember the last time I was able to sleep past 9am! OMG so at vb today it was nice a warm, so no vb socks were required which I OMG realized I need to do my toes:) another thing I realized was how ashy, white, and hairy my legs were uccck. I guess that's what the winter does, and not seeing matty this weekend doesn't require shaving lol..so as soon as I showered, that was first on my list, remove hair from legs. whoooof, feel much better. Can't wait for more vb tomorrow night :)
My mind completely goes blank when I start talking to him..i can't blog right now...ahh ok, focus...damn it...I know I said I was gonna tear down the wall, and I have torn it down about 1/2 half...it's that last 1/2 that's a bitch to get down...as much as I want to just give in 100% and let go, and just let fate or whatever this is take over...i'm still nervous as hell..It feels soo different, yet so right all at the same time. I mean if there truly are real soul mates out there.. i think i've found my match...I was beginning to think HB was my soul mate and we were gonna have to convert to lesbos..i guess she's now off the hook, well at least for now dude. I can't even say it...I don't know if i'm ever gonna be able to say it again...I mean I wanted to last weekend, I wanted to today, I just don't. Maybe it's the last thing I'm holding onto..if i never say it...i can't get hurt right? I mean I say it to Drake, and MOm, and HB all the time, and even to G-money aka Jr. but they're never gonna rip out my heart, squeeze it between their teeth, then throw it against the fucking wall...so for now I'm still holding onto it.. well maybe I'll blog again later, maybe you'll just have to wait till tomorrow...
ps, i did have a few swigs of wine tonight while i was cooking heheeheh :)
Until next time bitches ~ prost
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